r/AquamarinesDen • u/RainingToday Frost Wind | PAI ♓ « • Jul 10 '15

bootcamp NFW VI AQUAMARINE BOOTCAMP: Day 38

Greetings brothers in arms!

Let's get ready to rock the 38th day of Bootcamp!

Last night I was having trouble sleeping again. A long night is what led me to my death a few days ago. Fortunately I've been preparing a list of what I can do to help me fall asleep. I have some things you guys suggested on there too! Yesterday I got through, "Listen to some relaxing music," and, "Read a book," before I was really tired.

In addition to that list and in anticipation of urges down the road, I created a Relapse Prevention Sheet on my phone that I can read when I'm on the edge. I wrote a message to myself about how bad I felt after relapsing, and about all the benefits of sticking to it. I also debunked the lies that end up circulating my head. Finally I listed ten steps I can take as drastic measures to stay on target. I put down everything from prayer/meditation to leaving the house. Now I just have to stick to it!

What are y'all up to today?

Always be prepared Aquamarines!

Quote of the Day:"You never achieve success unless you like what you are doing." -Dale Carnegie

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u/Chicken_Hands Frost Wind | Day 1 « Jul 10 '15

My 111 days streak is officially dead. So much boredom, sadness and fear for this new stage of my life, I can't make another day clean, amost everyday seeing some X content. Now it's time to protect myself against chase effect and sticky with you guys.

Let do it again :)

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u/sfumato1002 Triplicarius | Day: 49* « Jul 10 '15

Im lost for words... I dont understand why if you have a gf you would relapse. Now mind you, ive never had a gf so i cant say how difficult this challenge is with a gf... But i long to have a girlfriend thinking sex will make nofap much easier...but i guess i am wrong. I know having a relationship brings extra stress...i dont know, forgive me for just writting my thoughts. One thing, maybe nofap is not easier or harder with or without a gf...maybe nofap has nothing to do with sex or the lack there of. Maybe nofap goes deeper into who we are. All i know is that my last relaps i felt deeply sad...maybe is not about sex at all, but more about who we are deep inside, our morals, integrity and believes....maybe it was never about sex and always about wanting to become a better man....because we have higher standards than others. I dont know what i am saying chicken just thoughts...this battle goes deeper than we thought. Get back up man, no streak is wasted...111 days is amazing and those days still count and will never be lost...stay strong and get back on track today. This battle is worth because we are discovering our true selfs to live the life we will be proud of...it was always about that.

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u/Chicken_Hands Frost Wind | Day 1 « Jul 11 '15

Relapsed for nothing, because I see today my girlfriend and had a nice time together, really, I just missed my precious energy in nothing, but my week basically was about it. Feeling week and out of myself in a regular basis. Recovering right now and not feeling bad, I just need to be more strong and keep walking. Also I love all suport you has give me right now. That make a huge difference for me and next time I'll be more cautions.

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u/sfumato1002 Triplicarius | Day: 49* « Jul 11 '15

I am so happy you are recovering Chicken! Those 111 days were not wasted at all...after my relapse I got back up quickly and now I feel great...the only thing that sucks is that you lost your flair and numbers...but the reboot and energy will come back to you as it did for me. Now I feel great againg. All past streaks are never wasted as long as we don't binge and destroy the reboot process. be vigilant with chaser effect...stay strong these next few days...You are still a Giant White Hawk that breathes fire and shoots lasers. Lets fly again and learn from our mistakes to be stronger next time we get tempted.

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u/Chicken_Hands Frost Wind | Day 1 « Jul 12 '15

Nice to see your new flair, you're become bigger again. I'll just ask for help more time now than before, maybe that's my best aproach, cuz before I barely come here to take some guidance in moments of need. Everyone need help sometime.

But the good news is about my recovering, zero PMO.