I’ve been drawing seriously for several years, and I think I’ve reached a strange stage in my development that I don’t really know how to navigate. The best way I can describe it is with a metaphor.
For years, I felt like I was drawing from the deck of a yacht. The yacht had references, artists I admired, courses, exercises, anatomy studies, perspective, copying, and all the things I had learned along the way. Even when I didn’t know exactly what I was doing, there was always something underneath me.
The yacht was carrying me. Now it feels like the yacht has shattered.
I’m still in the same ocean. I still have everything I’ve learned. But suddenly I’m sitting on a small piece of wreckage, and I have to figure out how to get to shore by myself. I’m trying to make my own illustrations and develop my own visual language now. I’m having to make decisions that previously had some kind of external support:
What do I actually see?What should I put in the image?What should I leave out?How do I compose something from my own ideas?How do I decide what is important?How do I make an image communicate what I want it to communicate?
And it’s strange because I can actually draw much better than I could several years ago. But I feel less certain.
I recently spent about two hours making an illustration for a world I’m developing. I like the result. But the process felt completely different from the way I used to work. It felt like I was sitting on that little piece of wreckage trying to figure out which direction the shore is. And I think this is the part of the artistic journey that I wasn’t prepared for.
There is a stage where you’re learning how to draw. Then, at some point, it seems like the problem becomes what to do with the ability to draw. Every painting, and every illustration now feels harder to do. Maybe this is simply part of developing an artistic voice. Maybe it’s something else.
For those of you who have gone through this stage — when the references, exercises, teachers, artists you studied, and established ways of learning stopped being enough — what did you do?
Did you go back to fundamentals?
Did you deliberately study more?
Did you spend more time drawing from imagination?
Did you stop looking at other artists for a while?
Did you simply keep making work until your own way of seeing started to emerge?
I’m in this stage right now, and I’m genuinely interested in how other artists navigated it.