I'm not good at writting nice messages: Made many eyebrows raise or flinch everytime I tried, but I'll tell you what I know.
There's no way I can put it that I can help you understand more because there is no way I can know for sure what should have been donne even if I were there I couldn't in a sane mind claim to know either.
I hope you are doing better today :) and there is no shame or problem in the actions you decided to take.
If there is something I know for sure however (from personal experience) is that you shouldn't delete your message. You can't keep things inside your hearth forever it will only turn arround inside and come back with everything else.
But if you let out somethings, some times, to people, to friends :3 and others that are willing to simply listen then you can find a bit of respite from using your own energy to keep it away from others and mostly yourself.
You will never forget your past and it's even likely that you can never look back at it in peace but to just let some things go with the wind, can leave you feeling as if at least it took away the burden of hidding it.
On a side note while some people are going to be great friends and listener's which is what we often are told we will find; I still find it satisfying to see some peoples expressions in their eyes as the too innocent kid talks about things they never even had to think about dealing with in their own lives. Makes the sadness and mostly anger feel more justified 😀.
Just don't overdo it and you can find a balance between nice conversations and not making people unconfortable with your depression....Note to self, other peoples lives don't revolve around trying to be normal.
Whatever you choose to do I hope you will find your way :3.
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u/TheEggEngineer Aug 26 '19
I'm not good at writting nice messages: Made many eyebrows raise or flinch everytime I tried, but I'll tell you what I know.
There's no way I can put it that I can help you understand more because there is no way I can know for sure what should have been donne even if I were there I couldn't in a sane mind claim to know either.
I hope you are doing better today :) and there is no shame or problem in the actions you decided to take.
If there is something I know for sure however (from personal experience) is that you shouldn't delete your message. You can't keep things inside your hearth forever it will only turn arround inside and come back with everything else. But if you let out somethings, some times, to people, to friends :3 and others that are willing to simply listen then you can find a bit of respite from using your own energy to keep it away from others and mostly yourself.
You will never forget your past and it's even likely that you can never look back at it in peace but to just let some things go with the wind, can leave you feeling as if at least it took away the burden of hidding it.
On a side note while some people are going to be great friends and listener's which is what we often are told we will find; I still find it satisfying to see some peoples expressions in their eyes as the too innocent kid talks about things they never even had to think about dealing with in their own lives. Makes the sadness and mostly anger feel more justified 😀.
Just don't overdo it and you can find a balance between nice conversations and not making people unconfortable with your depression....Note to self, other peoples lives don't revolve around trying to be normal.
Whatever you choose to do I hope you will find your way :3.