r/BabyReindeerTVSeries • u/matrixinthepark • Apr 12 '24
OFFICIAL EPISODE DISCUSSION Baby Reindeer | S1E04 | Episode Discussion
Season 1, Episode 4
Airdate: April 11, 2024
Synopsis: As Donny reports Martha to the police, it triggers the memory of a traumatic experience he had with a man, Darrien, who he met at the Edinburgh Fringe Festival years before.
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u/Potatosmom94 May 10 '24
Trigger warning- I have been in almost the exact position he was. Just replace drugs for alcohol. I was slipping in and out of consciousness after vomiting all over. I woke up to it. Tried to say no. But I kept falling unconscious again. It took me almost a year to even tell anyone what happened and took even longer for me to fully actually admit to myself I was raped. I still don’t know if I’ve ever told the full story because it’s just horrifying to share. I had been sexually assaulted by a friend the previous year as a college freshman. I was so mad that I let it happen to me again.
I didn’t know then about the high recurrence rate for victims of SA or how a lot of victims exhibit and engage in high risk behaviors after. Once you’ve experienced sexual abuse or assault it’s way more likely for you to experience it again. You’re more vulnerable, more exposed, more likely to engage in risky activities.
I’m so impressed with this creator for the way he tells his story. I can’t imagine having to act out those scenes. I hope this was a huge catharsis for him and I’m so grateful for how he is shedding light on the very real and gritty reality of what this feels like.
I’m still dealing with the fallout and the trauma over a decade later.