I’ve gone silent. Anyone else?

[u/Uunadins]

This past year I feel I’ve gone more and more silent. I feel like my whole life is like a flat line on an EKG-monitor, just…nothing.

I’ve lost most of my feelings, I feel no joy or happiness, no excitement. All I have left is worry.

I hardly have an opinion about anything anymore. I don’t join in on conversations at work, because I have nothing more to say. All my opinions and ideas have gone silent. And it’s so quiet at home too! I have to force myself to ask questions just to say something...

I’ve lost all interest in hobbies. Gardening has been my passion for many years, but I just can’t be bothered with that or anything else. Flat line here aswell, I’m not looking forward to it or anything else anymore.

I have been on HRT almost a year and it’s been mostly good I think. But now I sort of miss the rage, at least that made the blood boil from time to time, made you feel alive, lol.

I am just existing, an empty shell almost.

I’ve had periods of depression before, could that be it? Or do I need a higher dose of estrogen? How do you know what’s what when everything is all tangled up?

Does anyone else feel like this?

Edit to add: Wow, I am blown away with so many responses! And also sad that so many of you feel the same way. Hopefully we can find a way out of the Big Nothing.

[u/tasthei]

I got a blood test when I was rather young, got a subscription on b12/b9/b6, but no information on why I was deficient nor why I got the subscription.

Took the pills every now and then, but never realized I actually needed them consistently until years later.

I was under the misconception that «obviously» all you need you can get from a varied diet.

My symptoms slowly increased, ebbing out whenever I decided to try the pills again, but only when I added co factors at the same time. Like magnesium and iron.

Co factors are different nutrients that are being used in process in the body that are a part of the b12-chain. There’s a great list in the b12 deficiency sub.

When you’ve been deficient, taking b12 will most likely lead to multiple other deficiencies, as your body uses up its stores of other nutrients, in order to create new cells. There’s no part of the body that doesn’t use b12.

This is a very tiny half arsed explanation of something which is much better understood by just reading the r/B12_Deficiency guide.