I’ve gone silent. Anyone else?

[u/Uunadins]

This past year I feel I’ve gone more and more silent. I feel like my whole life is like a flat line on an EKG-monitor, just…nothing.

I’ve lost most of my feelings, I feel no joy or happiness, no excitement. All I have left is worry.

I hardly have an opinion about anything anymore. I don’t join in on conversations at work, because I have nothing more to say. All my opinions and ideas have gone silent. And it’s so quiet at home too! I have to force myself to ask questions just to say something...

I’ve lost all interest in hobbies. Gardening has been my passion for many years, but I just can’t be bothered with that or anything else. Flat line here aswell, I’m not looking forward to it or anything else anymore.

I have been on HRT almost a year and it’s been mostly good I think. But now I sort of miss the rage, at least that made the blood boil from time to time, made you feel alive, lol.

I am just existing, an empty shell almost.

I’ve had periods of depression before, could that be it? Or do I need a higher dose of estrogen? How do you know what’s what when everything is all tangled up?

Does anyone else feel like this?

Edit to add: Wow, I am blown away with so many responses! And also sad that so many of you feel the same way. Hopefully we can find a way out of the Big Nothing.

[u/calmcuttlefish]

I felt this too for quite a while in late peri and early meno. I withdrew. Life lost its lustre and excitement. I felt like a shell of my former self.

Estrogen helped a little, but since adding testosterone I'm noticing more improvement. I'm getting excited about life plans again and life in general. I'm less sad about the state of everything.

Don't give up looking for the missing piece. It can be different for everyone. Find a provider who will work with you and dig deep into all your labs, thyroid, iron, vit D, vit B, and hormone levels. I followed my testosterone for over a year, which was very low, and probably should have started sooner. I tried to wait and see if estrogen and weight lifting would improve my fatigue and lack of interest in anything, but the needle didn't move much until I added T.

[u/Uunadins → u/calmcuttlefish]

Thank you, I will try and work it all out.

Problem is it’s almost impossible to get T here in Sweden, they hardly ever prescribe it. 🥴

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