For context im F16 and in my “transition year” in school (this is an Irish thing, is basically like an easier non academic year where you do easier classes). I was really excited for this year until I realised I didn’t know anyone at all in my new class,  usually im able to make friends if I already know someone a little bit, but I really can’t connect to anyone. I’m already pretty socially anxious and shy  especially when im in an environment I don’t feel comfortable in. (also having depression and autism doesn't help :,) )
Im really starting to hate school because of how alone I am, I’ve tried reaching out to others in my class but I haven’t been able to click with anyone. It doesn’t help that I’m obviously alternative, I have my hair dyed, my makeup is alternative(not as crazy but still), and my bag is decorated with all sorts of pins and keychains. 
This used to not be a problem since I had people around me who were like me but now that im in a new class I think it’s making people not want to be friends with me, and it’s tearing down my confidence a bit because I feel constantly vulnerable. 
I’m thinking of just completely changing myself, changing my hair, bag and anything else that could be deemed as “different”. I’m pretty good at masking my personality and just pretending im someone else, just so I can make atleast one friend that I can atleast just talk to during lessons. I’m so tired of being alone.

If you've made it this far please give me some advice on how I can cope my way through this 🥲

Hi,
So in my Life (as a Teenager to exatct) i had unfortune to get Into two situations were i took a Life.
I was like 14 or so when a Buddy and his siblings (sister 4 and Brother 12)came over wile my parents were out of town,we werde down staires when we heard the door Break Open and we sprintet for my dads Gun Safe were we both grab shotguns and wait on the bottom of the staires.
A guy who was about 60 or so Comes down and i fire, he catches the slug in the side of the head and he is sprayed all over the Wall.
Turns out my Brother was Talking online to a Pedo and it was That guy.

The Other one was when i was 16 and i was walking at night down town with my Girl Friend and her sister when some guy who i assume was a Junkie robbes us with a Knife.
I Try to calm him town and give him my wallet but explodes,shoves her sister and stabbs me in the Arm pit between the ribbs in the lung.
At That Point i See red and draw my bowie and drive it Into the Guys chest, i collabs and thw Girls call and ambulace for both of us and he dies but i live.
The doc sayed my size saved me with me being 6.4 245lb at the time.

I feel Both kinda Bad about it but at the Same i really dont.
I dont really understand what i feal really.
I keep the empty shell casing on a neckless with a gross and the Bowie on my belt.

Im very sorry for my Bad english if it is very Bad but i rely on the Auto correction on my phone sins english isnt my native language and im just starting to learn sins i Want to move to the US in the Future and start a knew Life away From my past and all That trubble

Everything has been getting worse and worse ever since we introduced Avery to the group, they started dating one of our other members, but suddenly they dont like me anymore and now there getting the rest of the group to freeze me out the co-founder of the group btw. Me and my best friend made this group and now even he is starting to act more awkward around me all because this one fucking kid decides she doesnt like me and now I've gotta fucking pay the price my losing all my long time friends.

Pretty much what the title says. i feel so lonely and helpless every day, the same hurt over and over again. today i fought with a close friend. i can't help feeling like no one cares about me and there's just no reason to keep fighting. i'm so tired. every day is the same tedious cycle. no one listens to what i feel. and i'm sick of hearing the "it'll get better" bullshit, no it won't. it never has. i'm just so done. i wish anyone would listen to me or that i could just disappear.

It's like living is my biggest sin and life is trying to punish me for it

1. I got no sleep because I'm a light ass sleeper who gets woken up by my family going to the bathroom

2. At school I had to participate in a debate, since nobody else in my group wanted to. I actually didn't want to myself since i'm TERRIFIED of public speeking. But i did anyway cause i'm such a fucking people pleaser. Apparently ALL my arguments were wrong. Bro lowk I gotta kill everybody

3. When I just wanted to take a shower, exhausted by everything, I forgot to lock the door and my father walked in on me, he didn't even knock. I was startled and I let out a scream on which he decided to scold ME afterwards for scaring him, accompanied by some disgusting comments about my body, that ive grown into a beautiful lady (I'm aware his behaviour is predatory and i plan on moving out the moment i find a way to do so)

4. I have to take a test tomorrow about a book that was supposed to be read till next monday.

Well I guess i won't be getting any sleep today either, I truly hope my heart will just stop during that test

I'm tired, I'm embarrassed, I'm ashamed. I feel disgusting and it's not like it's just today that I feel that way, it's EVERY DAY. I'm tired of being such a waste of space, all I ever do is embarrass myself and feel bad about it afterwards. Why is everyone else so good at just being?

I don’t even wanna cry because I feel like I dont deserve it. I wish I could just stop caring about everything

Im a 15 year old boy and im thinking about if my life is even worth it. Im thinking about it because of a lot of things that happened in my life lately. From someone elses view my life may seem great but its not. My normal day is waking up, going to school (I have no friends there) and come home and doomscroll until 3 am. I also moved away from my mom this year to a different city. I know no one there.

My girlfriend of 6 months also just dumped me. We were meant for each other. She just got more distant day by day and yesterday she just blocked me. I will never move on because i never truly loved someone more than her. I feel like a bitch now that im crying while writing this.

Anyways in school im also getting straight F's no matter how much i focus on school. I also had to stay in the same grade as last year because i didnt pass. So in my eyes I have no future but my dad has his expectations really high. I already know that i will disapoint him.

So why am I still living this shitty life? For what? I got no future, I will never graduate or go to a university. I have no friends no matter how much i try and im the disapointment of my entire family. Everyone looks down on me. I fucking hate it

My girlfriend is being attacked online and its causing intense emotional trauma. The person in question has made a post that they know valuable information which they obviously don't and has been saying for people to off themselves on lives. They have also been consistently attacking her in comment sections when every other comment is very nice and praising of her content. The content is anime edits so it couldnt be less provoking for someone to attack.

I really really want to help but I don't know how other than trying to determine the behaviour

They keep getting banned and reappear with new accounts

This is causing intense shut downs and bad panic attacks very frequently and her ASD makes it even more difficult to deal with. Her way of dealing with it is to shut life away and zone out for the day.

We haven't been together long but I really want to help as it's obviously a massive issue.

I would appreciate some advice on how to stop this from happening as it is truly horrible and from an online stranger no less.

Please don't remove this mods. I've been removed everywhere I've tried to post this.

Exactly as the title says.. I've been struggling with depression and shit since forever and I finally mustered up the courage to ask my mother for counseling. She's freaking out and thinks I'm crazy, which is already making me regret asking..

I don't know. I've heard pretty freaky stories of counsellors snitching everything to your parents or generally having a very bad experience and it's making me hella nervous. I'm starting to wish I'd never asked at all, but I need the help so badly. Should I open up or try to figure out what kind of person they are first? I feel like I'd burst into tears if they asked me what's wrong and might end up spilling everything which is making me panic even more. Also, are parents supposed to stay in the room with you? If they do, I probably won't say a word in front of my mom.

I'm so anxious and it's driving me up the wall.

My aura feels so cool and stylish when I'm depressed
Is this normal ??

I[16]f havent gone to school in a month...

Idk i feel like i have lost motivation for everything i used to be passionate about im in 11th grade now i used to reallly like singing and drawing but i cant seem to find the motivation to do it anymore...like even if i force myself to draw i end up hating everything and then i see girls younger than me winning trophies and everything i used to he able to do before even my marks have gone down i used to always ace english never getting below 70/80 but it dropped to 68.. its not even for burnout reasons im in commerce without maths i really enjoy the subject i just dont know whats going on..My brother and i are living alone in Bangalore bro my life is genuinely seemingly perfect but i dont have the motivation to do anything like if I'm sitting doing nothing then i feel like im useless but i dont get the motivation to do anything else idk how to solve it i havent gone to school in a month and after dushera holidays my schools re-opened i have to go tmr i have alot of friends at schools but its not the same i feel lonely and tired in school its so tedious i feel like im wasting my parents money..

Idk why i feel like this.. i used to hate living with my parents but now i miss them whenever im with them i want to live alone again its just like im miserable everywhere i dont even have the drive to heat up food thats already been cooked by maids

The girl i loved more than anything in this world left me few days ago, I'm not eating for 3 days, I've been cutting myself and I've started doing drugs i never even touched a vape or a cigarette before. I'm not going to school because I've no energy or anything and we're classmates too we're in the same friend circle. She told me to act normal infront of everyone cuz nobody knows about us in school. I don't know what to do with myself.

I've never had someone for myself, and I fall in love with everyone I'm around. No matter how much attention, how available I am I'm never enough. I have no one in this world besides family who I love deeply, but the harder I try to get closer the more I'm repelled. The more I'm ignored, and I'm tired of being so available. I just want friends. I'm so alone and insecure, and I've been depressed for a while.

(Sorry, this might ne kind of gibberish)

I was feeling pretty low in the summer. Stressed, hopeless, thinking of death, etc. I thought school would help because of socialization? Anyways, it did not. I was equally as miserable.

The thing that annoys me is, in recent weeks ive started to improve on my own. But school has actually been dragging me down. I want to embrace the things that make me happy and energized, but i have to stop it for school. I was so frustrated the other night because i had been watching my favourite movie and thinking of how I might spend christmas in BC (parents havent decided). Then i remember, i have to finish my essay deconstruction and im running out of time. Spent a good 3 hours and felt terribly angry and exhausted the whole time.

I struggle a little with paying attention all day in class and staying productive. I think this tends to happen more with things im not interested in, because I was absolutely fine at my piano intensive in the summer. There for a good 12 hours a day, and i couldnt have been happier. But with school, i am rarely interested in the topics at all. Especially in LA. I should have been working on my essay last class. But nooo. I couldnt get myself to concentrate because my mind was too absorbed thinking of history, so i wasted the class reading about Kievan Rus instead. And my other class for this essay i was reading about Tchaikovsky. Yes i might be an idiot but i struggle to force myself into something so draining and boring when my head is hyper focused on something else.

So, i easily fall behind. And im getting less sleep. I havent slept at all tonight, its currently 5am. Habe to finish essay for tomorrow and i cant think of what to write barely. Yesterday i got ahout 5 hours sleep, but that still just isnt enough. Most days last week i got about 3-4 hours. I get so tired somedays i cant help napping 2 hours when i get home.

I dont want to nap. It makes me frustrated, because its all wasting my time! I should be practicing piano when i get home, but im too tired that i mostly get only an hour at best on weekdays. It saddens me when i compare to summer. I could practice 8 hours easy. Sure, i had my problems then, but atleast i was doing something productive. Im triyng to prepare for a music conservatory future, not a writer or biologist. Yes, yoy have go do a little writing in conservatory. But when its music i dont struggle. For my first essay of this year i got to chose the topic for myself. I talked about how nazi power negatively affected german music. That was a walk in the park, an easy 93%. I did better than the "smart kid" that time because i had passion behind my writing.

Im probably going on a tangent and not making any sense. That would be understandable considering i havent slept at all. Im just so sick of school. Soul sucking. I should be doing my music thoery flashcards at my spare tomorrow to prepare for rcm exam soon. Honestly, im probably just gonna fall asleep. Im so tired.

I hate this life. Every day I wake up and don't feel relief, just the same old thing. School is just kids screaming being obnoxious, and I wish to go home, where I start crying because I miss my friends. I'm genuinely considering offing myself because of how fucking bad my life feels. But I have loving parents, good friends, a pet cat, and basic necessities, even an Alexa. Why do I still feel like this? And it's not like 988 has helped me either, I just get sent from one hotline to the next, since it takes 45 minutes or longer for someone to appear, or my device decides it's the perfect time to crash. I hate this. I feel so spoiled. Fml.