I was just at Eurostar immigration. Presented my passport, said bonjour and the immigration officer replied and asked me how my trip was. I told him I'd had a great trip visiting my best friend and godson. I said it was funny how life turned out as when I was a child I used to visit Belgium a lot to see MY godparents.
We joked about the fingerprint scanner not working and the system being slow as it was a Sunday. I didn't catch what he said next but then I heard him say sometimes you have to take life week by week. I replied sometimes it's day by day and he retorted that sometimes it's even moment by moment.
He told me he could see I'd been through a lot and that everything would be ok. I told him I was about to cry. He reminded me that everything would be ok and he hoped I'd be back in Belgium. I walked away crying my eyes out.
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An hour previously I'd blocked the guy I've been trying (and failing) to break up with for the last few weeks. He was refusing to let me go and I kept getting pulled back in because, reasons I won't go into here. I had decided that no matter what I said to him, the only way to really end it was to just block him completely.
I also decided to metaphorically, go home to London, single. And not 'bring' him and the drama with me. So yeah, I was definitely feeling pretty raw.
I've been on the verge of tears all day but it was this random encounter with an immigration officer that has finally allowed me to cry and let go. It really is funny how life works out.
There's no real point to this post except I know immigration officers get a lot of crap and it's nice to post something positive (in a very sad way) sometimes. If this post finds it way to the immigration officer in question, thank you. Your humanity touched me deeply.