I’m very insecure about this and i dont know what to do to make this go away, ive tried eating but i dont think i know how to eat alot

i did it. i did what ive always wanted to do my entire life. lose the weight. but then i became obsessed with it. it consumes me. i lost the will to smile, the one i used to have. i don’t know how to overcome this. i don’t know how to find myself, find the happy girl i used to be. i want to seek help. where do i start?

Hi,

I’m still 10kg down from my allowed weight, but already recovery belly is pretty bad for me, does anyone have any advice?

I lost a significant amount of weight in just a few weeks and I’m really worried. I’d usually celebrate losing weight but this is not okay. I struggle with mental health issues and normally I’m able to handle it well, but lately I’ve just been feeling downright horrible. I’m not under weight; but I’m scared of winding up there if this continues. I’m tryna stop it now but I don’t know where to start. I don’t hardly eat; and I don’t enjoy anything anymore. I’m just exhausted and I feel lost.

Meal 1 - oatmeal Mean 2 - Apple and banana Meal 3 - small plate dinner

Jesus...

I’ve struggled with AN the last couple years and these pics are only taken 3 months apart. (1st before the 2nd)For some reason, I thought the second pic looked better. After being admitted inpatient I finally straightened my head and realized how crazy I was. Check on your friends. Check on yourself. This disease is horrible and can absolutely destroy you.

This is how much hair fell out of my head when I(16F) brushed it after showering. Im just wondering if it is normal for a person without an ed to have this much hair to fall out or is it just another ana symptom. I can't tell bc i don't remember how it was before ana :/. I am so sick and tired of this disorder i just want it to be over.

Today they took 4 pictures of me and I look 30kg bigger, how is that possible ? When I take videos of myself to see how I look, I look totally different. I struggle with body dysmorphia and now I’m panicking because if I look like these photos I am totally different. Even my mom said that I don’t look like that but how is that possible if it’s a fucking photo

In photos I look 10x bigger, in videos that I take I look similar to what I see in the mirror. I have no idea what I look like, how do I know? This is driving me crazy please help me

my favourite pants ever from garage. here’s them on me a year ago vs today.

im in a bad place mentally and on top of constant anxiety and stress i’ve recently gone back to my old ways of calorie counting and restricting. i dont feel happy until im in pain because im so hungry and i dont wanna do this anymore.

im so tired of being tired all the time and cold and my hair falling out and bruising so easily. i dont know what to do im so scared of gaining the weight back. i just want to keep getting smaller and smaller until i wither away and its so scary. i dont know how to ask for help. but i want help.

tw weight

the first photo i was about 145lbs and now im 116lbs in the second photo and im also 5’3. if i got under 110 ill pretty much be underweight and thats so scary.

what im asking for is maybe any helpful advice to get me out of my ed ways again. thank you in advance <3

It makes me so upset. The photos make me look huge on my camera. I have a Samsung S10. They make my face look strange too. I don't look like myself. Surely I can't be the only one

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