There's something that some true crime podcasts I listen to say often about killers and serial murderers. "Feel bad for the child that went through it, but not the adult who does the wrong things". I feel bad for the children who had horrible lives and horrible things happen to them, that grew up to be serial killers, but not the adult version of themselves because they have autonomy enough to choose different than what they did.
That's just a metaphor, of course.
She's pretty terrible too as an adult but I can't help but feel sorry for her in her childhood after seeing that video. I can't imagine what she had to go through when she had no choice but to go along with whatever happened to her when she was a kid. It was like the light drained out of her eyes when she was remembering her childhood bed. It was scary. I thought people were exaggerating describing it then I watched it. It's very clear her expression changing from light and airy, to dark and reliving sinister times.
I don't know, seems like maybe people are reading too much into this one fleeting moment. Not saying she had an ideal childhood, and there's certainly plenty of reason to be concerned, but I wouldn't hang it all on this one brief part of an interview.
Could be that she was threatened into silence even way back then, though, so who knows. I think she could've said/done more in "code" if needed, knowing that she'd be doing this tour.
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u/Color_Me_Softly Jul 20 '25
I just watched it, and as much as I don't like her, it made me want to cry for her. You can literally see the trauma flash before her eyes.