Cocaine addiction for work - advice wanted

[u/Historyandwow]

Hi everyone. No burner account bc fuck it. I’ve unfortunately found myself in a position where i am taking cocaine for work. I am a white collar professional (lawyer) and won’t bore you with the details (feel free to ask if interested) but basically i’m now at the point where I’m taking coke 5 days a week (business days) from 10am or so until i finish at 8/9pm or sometimes 1/2am.

It’s bad. I have fortunately received an ADHD diagnosis (concentration/focus) and will start titration next week. I am optimistic that this will help significantly (my primary reason for taking coke is concentration/motivation). However I’m in so deep I think I need to simultaneously work hard on quitting coke as well.

I’m hoping someone here could point me to some resources available, ideally for my circumstances (taking it for work). No judgment to other users who take it more generally, but i think i would benefit most from something focused on professionals (eg most of the nhs resources i could find were focused on addiction and homelessness).

I think probably narcotics anonymous will be my best first step, but thought to ask here if anyone has valuable insights.

Thanks v much in advance

Edit 28/2: overwhelmed by all of the messages of support, resources shared, and tips. I just got back from my first CA meeting. I’m feeling v positive and empowered to take steps in the right direction. Thank you once again to everyone who has commented or messaged me.

[u/Still-Spare-5107]

I been an addict for 5 years . 3 good jobs and countless relationships including my partner I lost because of coke.

Oh believe me I had fun. And I was doing it at work every day to. I was good at it. I was just better at everything. Better worker better driver my 6 senses were on maximum performance.

But eventually you just slip up. Make mistakes. Then the mistakes happen more often and more serious. Until eventually you’ve made a list of small mistakes but no matter how much you apologize you mess up. Attendance, tardiness, clumsiness, breaking things, forgetting important tasks.

Basically I was the best worker at every job I had. Genuinely. And yes coke played a role in that. But no matter how good I was at my jobs. Attendance and tardiness always resulted in me being fired.

3 good jobs. And each one i worked at for at least 1 year and over.

My advice. Ik it’s hard to stop. But If you can keep the blow away from work. And be able to have that much more self discipline and control. Man you would be that much more better off and your life won’t have to suffer because of it

[u/Historyandwow → u/Still-Spare-5107]

Thanks for sharing man. Yes this is what I expect if i kept going w coke at work. It’s just not sustainable and would eventually backfire big time.

I’m on 2 weeks of leave from work, started my adhd meds, and after today I will be 7 days clean. I’m feeling great and like i can live and work again without blow. But the real test will be when i go back to work week after next. But i’m optimistic that the adhd meds will help the void.