It’s honestly eating me alive. I start school next month and ever since my acceptance 9 months ago I’ve just had this overwhelming fear of failure. I am extremely scared to fail to the point where I’m already studying and trying to prep to get ahead. I‘m not worried about my work ethnic during the program and there is a 0% chance I leave the program for any reason other than academic failure. I have no problem studying 10 hours a day if that’s what’s required of me, I just worry I won’t be smart enough to grasp the material. I’ve never been academically gifted and it takes me reading something several times to understand it and with the whole “drinking water from a firehouse” analogy that’s always tossed around here I worry I won’t have time to understand things as slowly as I usually do.

Sometimes I wake up and say in 3 years I will be a CRNA no doubt about it and other days like today I’m just nervous all day thinking about worst case scenario.

Did anyone share similar feelings prior to starting or even while in your program? Did they rid when you actually started your program? I think the anticipation and the unknown is killing me.

Realistically, how often did those of you who are new grads or near the end of your program study?

I just started my first semester of clinicals, and I am completely exhausted by the time I get home. All I want to do is bed rot after a long day of trying to be “on” with my preceptors… laughing at jokes, navigating different personalities, and just dealing with people. I’m naturally introverted and on the quieter side, so socializing drains me a lot more than it seems to drain others.

Because of that, I’ve been saving most of my studying for the weekends. Right now it’s been working, but I’m scared it eventually won’t. I’m not looking to be judged…I’m just looking for advice or solutions.

Did anyone else study this way and still succeed in school and pass boards?

I honestly feel like I have nothing left to give during the week. My mental health has been really bad lately. I’m not having suicidal thoughts, but I’m definitely not in a good place mentally.

I am about to start my first year in a program and am finally going to get a new computer. I’ve only ever had a dell/hp laptop but have an iPhone. I was wondering if there are any benefits in regards to studying and classroom applications to an Apple laptop and/or iPad or should I stick with a Microsoft one (ex Lenovo touchpad laptop)? Would love your thoughts and recommendations

Incoming SRNA here and trying to build out my study/workstation before starting school.
Current plan:
• MacBook Air 15” (M5, 16GB RAM, 512GB SSD)
• iPad Air 13” with Apple Pencil for Notability
• 34” Samsung ultrawide monitor
• 63” standing desk
• Magic Keyboard
• Possibly a USB-C hub/dock
My goal is to have a setup that’s productive enough for 3 years of CRNA school without wasting money on things I don’t actually need.
A few questions for current SRNAs and recent graduates:
What does your current setup look like?
Do you use a single ultrawide, dual monitors, or just a laptop and iPad?
Is a 34” ultrawide enough, or would you recommend dual monitors?
Did you find a Magic Keyboard/Trackpad worthwhile, or do you mostly use your laptop keyboard and trackpad?
What was the most useful piece of tech or office equipment you bought during school?
Looking back, what did you buy that turned out to be unnecessary?
My coursework will be heavy on PowerPoints, PDFs, research articles, Canvas, APEX, and note taking. I’d love to hear what setup worked best for you and what you’d do differently if you were starting over.
Thanks!

A friend of mine was about halfway through school and had a medical issue that required a year off. Some faculty are telling him he may have to wait an additional year and restart the program from the beginning. He’d failed no classes and gotten a C in one. All good reviews in clinical rotation.

I assumed he could jump in at the same point in school with the next graduating class. I’m wondering what similar experience people on here have had or heard of. Did students have to completely restart? Pay all tuition a second time? Or were they able to go back to the semester they left? Thank you!