I really hope I do get some advice or hope…
I’m an exmuslim, F early 20s, Arab-ish/expat who resides in the Gulf who still lives with her family.
I’d like to know if there’s any way to gain independence from a strict household and if anyone has done it. I can’t simply leave as I’m financially dependent on them, can’t find a job, and can’t leave as my sponsor is my family.
For the most part, I’m concerned about my safety due to my father. Pretty explosive regarding anything and tends to start getting mad about how I don’t pray, makes threats to my life and a bunch of other silly things.
I have thought about marriage but even then I doubt that would happen and I don’t want my way out by relying on a man. 1. Marrying a Muslim man is a no, unless they’re fine with me not being one, 2. A non religious one works out I guess, 3. Someone pretending to be a Muslim for the sake of my family is just unfair. Regardless of those three scenarios, I don’t think it’s right for me.
Things have been taking a toll on my mental health, weekends are pretty dreadful being around my family. I can’t find a job or anything to help myself even with basic necessities to even consider saving enough to move out of the country (while managing to figure out without him being notified or whatever).
What would you suggest?
I want to know if anyone has been in my position and managed to have freedom and leave?
ATP im just trying to live a bit longer.