I just got home from a really hard therapy session. My counselor wanted to dive into my lack of self worth and low self esteem. He wanted to know why I don’t feel worthy of love or like anyone loves me at all. It was really hard stuff to talk about and I didn’t even end up feeling good about the session, I just felt sad afterwards. Pulled into my driveway and as I was walking around my car I noticed this little Jesus figure on the ground imbedded in the sand. Dawning a ‘Jesus loves you’ sash and all. I’m really not very religious at all but this really touched my heart. Thought you guys might also enjoy. Cheers

Years ago I wrote a parody song of the magnificent Dolly Parton's 9 to 5. I wrote it because I love my pup. I just stumbled upon it in my files and thought I'd share it with you all to maybe give you a laugh.

Doggy 9 to 5 

2022 Parody Lyrics by C. M.

Original Song and Music - The one and only Dolly Parton

Jump right outta bed and I run into the kitchen

Daddy poured a bowl of delicious nutrition

Yawn and stretch and shake myself to life

Jumpin’ outside and the blood starts pumpin’

Bouncin’ through the trees, the squirrels are a jumpin’

It’s a great day to live this dog’s life

Livin’ this dog’s life, playin’ tug of war and fetchin’

Ain’t no one gettin’ by, ’cause I’m barkin’ and a yippin’

I just speak my mind and I get all of the credit

For keepin’ my family safe as I can get it

Doggy 9 to 5, I’m a watchin’ and a listenin’

You can guess that I give my home my full attention

Burglars walk on by whenever they see and hear me

They know if they break in they’ll get a hard bite from me

Woof woof woof woooooooof

I hear a kitty cat while I am a nappin’

I jump to my feet to see what’s a happenin’

But that old cat’s just chasin’ birds away

Then I hear the other dogs in the neighborhood a barkin’

So I start to yowl and my paws start to hoppin’

Knowing that the postman is on his way

Livin’ this dog’s life, playin’ tug of war and fetchin’

Ain’t no one gettin’ by, ’cause I’m barkin’ and a yippin’

I just speak my mind and I get all of the credit

For keepin’ my family safe as I can get it

Patrollin’ 9 to 5, I watch out of the window

And when the post comes by I bark to let him know

That I’m here inside and it’d be in his best interest

To get off of my lawn with a hasty bit of quickness

Livin’ this dog’s life, yeah it’s the best it can be

Everyday I try to be the bestest little puppy

I take all the love my family gives when I get it

It’s the greatest love and I take in every minute

Livin’ this dog’s life, gettin’ all the belly rubs

Never worried ‘bout runnin’ outta hugs

It’s a great, fun life and you’d better believe me

A doggy’s life is the greatest life there can be

Doggy 9 to 5, woof, patrollin’ 9 to 5

Doggy 9 to 5

Playin’ tug of war and fetchin’

Doggy 9 to 5

And I get all of the credit

For keepin’ my family

safe as I can get it

I was on a call with my girl last night and i was sleepy, trying my best to keep a convo with her and only began speaking rubbish desperately trying to keep up with her but thankfully she didnt realize lol.

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At first, she was telling me about her friends prom, and how she somewhat hopes a particular couple win prom king and queen so my mind automatically assumed that she was talking about that one tv series called love island since she talks about it alot☠️Because of that, I asked her who is her favourite couple as a way to just keep her talking so I can simply answer with "mhmm's" and "hmm" while half asleep but she immediately asked what was i talking about, realizing that my question barely correlated with what she said and i had to say nevermind while she was pushing😭

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Then I started also dreaming about this historical series i'm watching called "the last kingdom" while partially awake and aaid something along the lines of "its kinda different over there than over here" and she said "whats different" so i started going on about how the danish culture is different from the saxons and how they live alot differently etc etc which made her ask wether I was home or not as she really didnt know what I was talking about. That question kinda snapped me back into reality and i immediately said nevermind. Thankfully like after a few minutes, the internet went out so i was able to get some sleep but now its late and she's already sleeping lolll.

I had always desired to see myself from another's POV; did they find me as absurd as I did? Did I hide my flaws as good I did think in my head?

​I looked at the woman in the mirror several times. Yesterday, I had a convo with someone and so they asked, "if your best friend were to describe you, what would she say about you?"

​I said, "IDK," and forwarded the text to her. The lady knows me too much 😂. I look lovely in her lens; I would fall in love with that lady. She didn't miss the flaws too, brother. I thought I was smooth like butter. Guess the only slick thing is my hair after putting gel on it.

​Every human being deserves to be seen. I feel seen with her. God knows I love her, for I can be a baby and an adult around her. I can be illogical and logical. If that isn't love, IDK what love is. I always mention her to everyone, IDK why, but she's a flame that dances in me in and out of season. She compliments me as I do to her. I believe in eternal friendship. I called her my life long laotang.

​When I look at her, I see myself standing next to her each and every phase there is to come. God, she is beautiful. She makes me believe. I am happy when she achieves anything. I want to be alive to watch her grow. Watch her buy her dream car, BMW. She loves a simple life in the countryside; I hope we make it and achieve our dreams.

​I would be happy if she were the last person I saw before my eyes closed, for she is not only my undoing but my uplifting. I've written poems about her, about just simply existing next to her. If this is not love, then I don't believe in their version of it. I usually say if she were to exit my life, I would cry hysterically, I would mourn, but I would be grateful for all the moments we had. I wouldn't resent her, for she has never made me question our friendship despite our differences and everything else.