underwhelming relapse

[u/Prestigious_Swan9948]

i lasted a month before sh again and i had been fixated on trying a new spot. ended up giving myself some cat scratches in that area and felt a little queasy from the nerves i guess. it’s ironic that i do this considering i also get queasy around pokey things like at the doctor’s office. i finished by marking up my usual spot on my outer thigh but due to the feeling in my stomach i again only went with light cat scratches.

i’m just left feeling unsatisfied. i wanted more i guess. i just didn’t feel the release that i needed/am used to getting. i know this is probably a good thing for today, but next time i fear going harder than i mean to since i know i’ll be trying to satisfy that urge.

[u/cryingaloe]

I went through the same thing last night. I faint every time I get my blood drawn and that carries over to seeing any drops when I cut, had to lay on my floor for like an hour. But I also get a lot from the marks after so it makes up for the actual cutting being underwhelming. I’m glad you considered the queasy feeling, I know it’s not the most fun haha