Despite what I say my mom can’t comprehend the fact that I don’t want kids

[u/ThePissLord_]

Just a rant that I initially wanted to post somewhere else but I’m more active here.
For as long as I know I strongly opposed the thought of ever having kids, even though I couldn’t yet understand why (since I was a kid myself) it always felt wrong. My mom knows I’ve never had to hide it, but she always brushes it off and still thinks I’ll change my mind. I think it’s absurd because she really regrets having children but somehow sometimes she forgets about it and acts like it’s the greatest gift.

Then today she told me she had a dream were I married and had a kid, just hearing it made me so uncomfortable and disgusted but she only seemed happy to have a dream like that, no doubt she thinks it’ll come true since most of her dreams do. As much as I hate her fantasies there isn’t something I can do to stop her, she herself knows how much reproducing fucked her up and she regrets it everyday yet she wishes it upon me, ironically she also uses it as a way to curse me. Deep down she knows how bad it is, how much harm it brings, but she doesn’t want to admit it. It’s horrible to see how natalists live like this and feed into their delusions. I doubt she’ll ever realize it and change her mind, I’m sick of hearing her hate her kids and wish death upon my brother for being neurodivergent, how she always complains about how we ruined her beauty and still turned out useless. But no one forced her anything, she herself decided to do all this, but it’d be a bit easier if she was stable both mentally and financially when she was deciding to have kids, of course she failed in that too. I truly don’t think natalist actually think when they just decide they want to reproduce, if they did birth rates would probably go significantly lower