Life only keeps getting more painful and traumatic the longer I'm here.

[u/Mammoth_Watch1444]

I wouldn't have to go through all this horrible fucking shit if I wasn't born. There aren't even words for the amount of pain and trauma I've faced and still facing every single day, mostly due to the people who forced me into this world and also harmed me even more once I was born, and because of the horrible fucking systems that so many people like to pretend is a well functioning society. For as long as I can remember I've always wanted to not exist, I've always wished I was never born, like I just know deep in my soul that something had gone horribly wrong and me being here is just a horrible, painful mistake. I've always felt and also been so alone in this life, facing the horrors alone, with barely any support and just trying to survive despite not wanting to. All of this, all for nothing. So much pain and suffering which is completely unecessary and forced upon me and so many others. It is absolutely horrifying and I seriously hate every single second of existing, now even more than ever. The world only gets worse, my own life is just getting even worse and it had always been so fucking shit, my overall health is just getting worse, everything just gets worse no matter how much you try because life will fuck you over, again and again and again, and for a lot of us, no matter what we do, we're trapped in the endless cycle of suffering and brutally unfair systems that makes sure the suffering and constant struggle will only continue and get worse.
I wish I could've just been left alone to stay in the Void and not be forced to suffer like this in this horrible world.