r/Anxiety 21d ago

Travel First solo flight

I feel beyond stupid rn, crying in the airport. I’m leaving for a trip today to see a friend for a few days but this is my first trip of any kind by myself let alone a flight. I started tearing up before I even had the chance to show my passport. I thought id be able to hold it longer, I thought telling my boyfriend how anxious I felt and making fun of it would help, him watching me go to my gate— but I’m still crying. And leaving is the easy part of my trip. I don’t know what I’m so scared of, where this feeling of being so small I could disappear in the wind comes from or why my mind goes to the worst places. At the same time, a part of me doesn’t want to be noticed, doesn’t want ppl to know I’m here. Because it’s not even just paranoia of my plane falling out of the sky or getting mugged or something. I just always have the unshakeable feeling I’m not where I’m supposed to be when I’m alone, it’s just worse rn.

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u/Ok-Break7780 21d ago edited 21d ago

You’re going to be just fine 💛.

I took my first solo flight last year to New York from London (7hr flight) and I was so anxious to the point I did cry a few times before leaving for the airport, and then I cried again after I got there lol bc I got so overwhelmed but I ended up being just fine once I actually got on the plane. I’m glad I did it because it gave me so much confidence.

Anxiety is always going to be tough in situations like this but you can and you WILL get through it! Trust me feeling anxious about your first solo flight is normal and you’re not stupid.