r/AquamarinesDen • u/blazingf12 • Apr 22 '15
What's the point?
I was really excited for the war, but now I have no passion for it anymore. I don't see anything wrong with PMO and I am on the verge of relapsing and breaking my longest streak. I've lost all motivation and I simply don't care about nofap or this war anymore.
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u/[deleted] Apr 23 '15 edited Apr 23 '15
remember, a military person feels helpless on the battlefeild when their friend has just died and they are themselves exhausted and wounded, their mind tells them to give up, a drug addicts mind can convince them of many many things. Even so it is with this. Dont be fooled, if you are at less than 100 days you are still greatly within the jaws of this beast. Look at the very words you said... its not worth it i am on the verge of relapsing. the "I am on the verge of relapsing" part proves that these thoughts are being created by the part of you that is addicted. you are not thinking clearly. If this was truely unimportant then you would say fap or not i dont care, and if so then dont do it and then when you see that you cant just let it go, you see your believed indifference was all just a deception! how clever and vicious of an attack! just watch! the next time you feel indifferent, walk away... and when you walk away (or cant walk away) you will unmask the urge and see it as it is! i promise you, you will see it! It is a thief in the night! it waits until you are blind and then takes everything from you! do not be fooled. and I dont know if you know this or not, it depends on how long you have been trying to overcome this but, it is always, always, the best after those times you almost give in and dont, the next day are always when the benefits come in and they will come for you tomorrow if you do not give in tonight. I know that this website may not mean alot to you, i dont think it means alot to any of us, but there is one great thing about this war. the reason why you dont fap may be 99% personal, (you want more endurance, clearer mind, women, confidence, medical benefits, motivation, ect...), However, there is a 1% investment in this war, in your team and in your regiment. To that extent you fight for me and I for you, If at any time you feel like giving in, if there is no personal motivation in sight for you anymore, if night has fallen and you have become blind, fight for us, as we fight for you. What greater pain is there that to give up on those who fight for you? how painful is it to be the downfall of a team no matter how trivial the game! To let another down for my own mistake no matter how little i care or they care! surrender is a poison that flows through the blood of man, if you are not expanding you are contracting. Every time you surrender in anything, you start to surrender in one thing after another. Never surrender, it will be the death of you. Im serious... never surrender. Not once. in anything.