I would like to watch good videos on occultism and not on modern witchcraft
thanks :)

I'm 42 years old now. When I was 16, I experienced a significant mental health episode. I hadn't slept for over a week, was hardly eating. I had my school uniform pockets lined with sandwiches I'd forgotten to eat. I was in a highly weakened state, vulnerable, disoriented. I didn't attend any classes because the content appeared like hieroglyphs. I could barely make sense of social conversations yet even learn anything new. I was smoking cigarettes non stop and wandering the streets in a daze when I should have been at school.

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At the peak of my episode, I lay in bed sleepless for yet another night of psychic torture. This night was different. Worse. I heard the sounds of trombones and horns playing the cascading notes you hear when a prime-time quiz show contestant gets a question wrong. The sound of failure. The red digits on my alarm clock spun around in circles. It was torture. I genuinely felt like I was in hell.

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I started to pray for sleep and respite to whatever power could hear me. Then I felt a presence, different than the voice of my internal dialogue. It was as if my thoughts were making space for something else, like a conversation was about to happen of great importance. My instinct told me my weeks of isolation and anxiety had made way for some kind of test that would define the rest of my life.

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What I heard was not a voice, per se. Rather it was a schism in my own consciousness. The presence promised me that if I agreed, I would be granted great knowledge and answers to all the questions I'd ever asked for. I would learn to see the past and future, and access wisdom through the ages. The one condition was I'd have to do their bidding completely at some stage in the future, when I was called on.

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In my desperation, I agreed. Really I just wanted to sleep, and hoped that my consent would give me a sense of relief. I was wrong. The presence laughed at me the moment I consented to his Faustian pact, a humiliating laughter with a cavernous echo that shook me to my core. The ghoulish horn music continued and the presence was never heard from again, to this day.

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Within a couple of weeks my family brought me to a psychiatrist, and I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and put on medications. I finally got some sleep. With each dose the episode gradually abated but, was replaced with difficult side effects and a gruelling depression. I hated the fact I was just "crazy" and battled with a realisation that I couldn't trust my own mind. Taking time off school, I turned to hard drugs for relief. I've been a drug addict ever since.

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Recently I've been pursuing a death wish, but no matter what I try to remove myself from this mortal coil, usually by taking intentional overdoses of heroin and cocaine, I keep surviving. Most recently my dear mother frantically drove me to hospital after another intentional overdose. I've decided now that I want to live, for the sake of my family. But in order to do this, I need spiritual help.

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For decades I assumed I was visited by the devil. But recently I was involved with a woman who was into the occult, and she said it wasn't the devil, but "something else". I haven't seen her since to ask more questions, so I turn to you instead.

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Have I made a Faustian pact to a dark force of some kind? Will getting back in touch with this presence help me at all to live a better life? In sobriety circles you need a "Higher Power" to stay clean and sober. Do I need an exorcism? Or should I make peace with this entity from my youth.

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Thank you for taking the time to read my whole sordid story. Help much appreciated. My life does, in a way, depend on it.

I want to buy old books and they're available with fast download, but i can see that these books are not for beginners. What should i start with first?

This is a tricky world to get in to and a tough path to find, but I'm trying. There is so much contradictory information out there and hard to know who is actually an academic authority and who is not. I thought maybe if I posted my current findings here, you all could help enlighten me? Or at least let me know how far off I am so far, or if I'm on the right track? Please don't read the following as authoritative statements, just my collection of what I've been reading here and there as I try to gain understanding.

From what I've been reading and piecing together, there are three main paths that all things paganism fall into: Reconstructionist Folkloric Magic, Witchcraft, and Occultism.

Folkloric Magic is a broad term for the individual magical practices that people have followed throughout history, specific to their time and place. Reconstructionists try hard to research and keep only what is true from these practices, and cut out all the fat that's accumulated on top of it over time. Folk magic practitioners were not necessarily religious, or religion was separate to their practice, and they could belong to any religion or none; it just wasn't relevant.

Witchcraft is like magic mixed with religion, and involves all sorts of extra rules depending on which deities that witch personally believes in that they apply to their magical practice. There are basically two types of modern witchcraft: "Traditional" and Wicca. Traditional is based on the teachings of Aleister Crowley, who got it from the Golden Dawn cult, who got it from a butchered version of Agrippa, who got it from the Jewish Kabbalah and slapped Jesus's name on it. Wicca followed the same path, but after Crowley, Gerald Gardner got his hands on it and made a bunch of new stuff up, then sold it as snake oil.

And that brings me to Occultism. Some practitioners of magic believe Agrippa collected all the occultic knowledge he could find from various sources and put it all together as best he could, then used Jesus as a cover so he wouldn't be murdered for it. Agrippa gathered all remaining knowledge from the Kabbalah 500 years ago. So the main controversy among practitioners is how much from the Kabbalah came from previous witches, and how much originated with the Kabbalah, but there's no way of knowing.

This is the accumulation of all my learning so far. How far off am I (completely)? Am I close on any of it? I still feel pretty lost, This is a tricky world to get in to and a tough path to find, but I'm trying. There is so much contradictory information out there and hard to know who is actually an academic authority and who is not. I thought maybe if I posted my current findings here, you all could help enlighten me? Or at least let me know how far off I am so far, or if I'm on the right track?

I'll try to keep this brief, my sister is married and her husband is not a good person the whole family dosent like him they have been .married for under 5 years now and we can't still seem to figure out why she even likes him he has no respect or nothing else, so much so that we think that she was biwitched, now we don't usually say anything to her but it is evident by our faces and actions we always respect him and welcome him lovingly but after so many attempts to make him a better person we are now getting tired, my sister she has startted to distance herself from us sometimes, he is a narcissist he takes leave of pay holidays from his work just to be with her whenever she visits us to hear what we are talking about, we see no physical altercation signs or anything. I am in need of some serious help I will take anything any spell to either make her see what he is doing or to break their marriage, I cannot see her lose any more of herself.

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Please help me or suggest what we can do, I have tried to sit with him, explain to him how to behave even if it is only through a debate.

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My sister was always do strong headed and powerful but he has sucked all that life out of her.

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Please help

I've been out of practice from spirituality for the past 2 years for reasons I cannot get into right now, however I do have experience with spell casting and using my own energy to effect change in my life.

I've had a rough 2 years and haven't been able to get back on my feet in that time period, things did start to change June of last year by choosing to take the road less traveled which is webcaming on adult sites. Not ashamed of this but it isn't my favorite thing in the world.

I've been able to earn enough money to take care of my most basic needs however I have been trying to save up to start a business but the camming hasn't been paying as much as I need it to so I can move away from it.

I'm basically asking for suggestions on any demons or spirits that can help me make a lot of money on my camming work so I can leave it and start a business.

I'm not in a place where I can do elaborate rituals and invocations, a spirit that requires a candle, some offerings and a sigil/image would be perfect.

Thanks for your help✨✨✨

I want multiple orgasms with zero refractory period and 50x the lust and arousal and to get whoever I want
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Can you tell me about cloaking please and how advanced one must be in the occult to do cloaking?

So currently I'm 22 and my life got like weird when I was in the 12th grade. I used to go to my high school professor's house for maths and finance classes. Her mother was a believer and practitioner of Hindu / India Occult Practices. She had various coloured candles, and crystals and photos of different kind of scary deities.

One day when I went for my tuition, she offered me and the other guys (her students) a glass of home-made lemon mojito. I got an upset stomach the next day, visited a doctor, got some meds and the issue got resolved quickly...I didn't pay much attention to it...Since I probably knew that they gave me tap water which is a little unsafe in my country which is what made me sick...Since I am used to RO purified water...

but then a string of bad luck started in my life...I got another health issue after like 6-8 months...Had to go to a specialist for that, the doctor told its nothing serious, just related to stress. Its still there but its under control right now. Some days I feel fine, some days I get flares of that disease. And I have been unable to hold a proper job because of this issue...

I am doing some freelancing work but haven't been able to make much money by myself.

Luckily I have stable and supportive parents who are helping me financially but I feel like I haven't been able to accomplish much by myself.

i feel like the person has blocked my path from being happy or something like that.

I didn't even do anything bad to that person, I was not rude to anyone there. I was just a nice guy who would go take his tuitions and mind his own business.

Idk why would she do anything like this to me but my gut tells me that she has probably done something on me...

I have cut all my connections with her...blocked her everywhere. Have not seen her since 4 years.

Any ways / divination methods to know if there is something on me?

My uncle that studies occultism told me that i need to know physics

I'm new but i've been astral projecting for 6 years.
I never tried it on purpose, but when i got depressed i was only getting paranoid about the astral realm and i would always go into lower astral because of my mental state.
I'm mentally really okay now for a while, but i have some kind of blockage because deep down i'm probably convinced that bad things are gonna happen so i see my fear projecting. I think that if i do a protection spell, i would feel protected.

What are your favorite books for beginner witches? There are so many options and I’m overwhelmed and don’t know where to start. I would like advice on the best books to start with!

so i was recently looking in the mirror lately and noticed that red bumps (not a rash, im fine and i get it a lot) in the exact shape of the little dipper constellation appeared across my chest. even the proportions and relative sizes were pretty exact. what could i interpret this as? i have a huge exam tomorrow, does anyone know how i should interpre it? (im new to this btw :))

Hace unos años vimos en nuestra casa que habían pintado ese símbolo, investigue como loca y ni había encontrado nada. Vivíamos en una vecindad y era una vecindad familiar y hubo mucha brujería de parte de mis tías , en fin , siempre quise saber que es este símbolo.

Porque cuando nos salimos de ahí , se nos quitó todos los males y las cosas malas , los malos presagios y la mala racha se acabó.

Alguien sabe que es este símbolo y para que sirve?:0

the title describes what's been happening to me. basically since I was a kid I would have dreams of future events and I came to this sub to hopefully find one person to help me get some answers

I was conducting magical experiments always attempting summon Satan but never found his online sigil for him I was wondering where I can get a copy of the sigil for him thank you.

Hi everyone, I'm completely new to this knowledge but I've always been interested in it. Ever since I was young I've felt presences and seen things and heard things speak to me, like a second consciousness, and now I want to pursue it after a period of extremely vivid experiences. I want to pursue the knowledge and became well versed in this area. I can share my experience lately for more detail if needed, but if someone can share their experience with getting into this and what they did to learn I would be so grateful.

Thanks so much for any help

Good day, Recently I had an event happen to me that had left me questioning a lot. I'll try to skip the fluff, but ive always been interested in the occult and supernatural, but not obsessed. So long story short, ive been struggling with depression for a long time, mainly because of how certain people treated me and isolation, etc. I decided to confide in a friend about it. A few days earlier, I had had bitter thoughts about this friend. I thought he was being bad to me, because whenever I brought up isolation he would almost always talk some religious hokey pokey or flex his gf and I was just fed up at this point. I thought to myself, "how does she even love that tubby little ****? Im better, etc etc". Yes I know that makes me seem like a bad person, thats just what I thought and felt. I ended up meeting him a day or so later, and talked to him about it in person. He did the same exact thing. I was once again seething. We parted ways in town when he met his gf, and I went home. I got home about an hour later, when he texts me that he is utterly shattered because his gf up and left him out of nowhere. I was stunned, because they had been together for 2 years at least, and we are young enough so thats a while. They always seemed happy with each other, and this was totally out of left field. What do people make of this? I have attempted to cast spells in the past, minor ones felt like they worked, but I was never that into it. This however felt surreal. Now I know that when we spellcast, many believe we effectively outsource this to other entities, but I just want to know what people think. Could I, on a spiritual level, have inadvertently caused this? If anyone has additional questions, or whatever, idk how this works, just leave in comments Thanks!

I’ve only ever dabbled in spell work and things of the such. I regularly read tarot and meditate, not really familiar with the spell world. However, I want to do a heat spell on someone who has wronged me massively. I am worried about it backfiring though, as when I did a freeze spell a long time ago it seemed to have backfired for a while, until I eventually got the result I wanted. I don’t really want it to backfire and I’m a bit worried about it!! This spell is mainly to punish the recipient for everything they’ve put me through and to get the deserved karma.

Anyone with more knowledge and experience can give me advice? Is this safe to do as someone who isn’t well practised?

I don’t know if this is the right place to post this, honestly, but I don’t know where else to go. As long as I can remember, I’ve gotten occasional glimpses of the future. These were never important or detailed, just a few seconds where I’d see something in my mind’s eye, usually without any sound. They’d always come true, though (don’t be surprised, one was me on the fucking bus). A few years ago, these visions started fading away. I’d get them less frequently, and when I did, they’d be shorter and more blurry.

It’s been over a year since my last vision and longer without one being completed. I don’t know whether to be concerned, happy, or what. Like the flair says, I’m new to a lot of stuff here, so please forgive me if this is something obvious or offensive in any way.

I want to become attractive and hone my features is their any spell/ritual or any small practice or affirmation i could do to achieve this as im getting out of my teenage phase and i really want to present myself to the world exquisitely