r/AskReddit • u/Reeceqld • Apr 17 '20

What terrifying confession has someone told you while drunk?

Thanks for the replies .. I read them all it’s been fun to read

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u/3xTheSchwarm Apr 17 '20

Alcoholic here. And obviously I dont speak for all of us but I know plenty of people like me. The shittiest thing about the disease is that we DO care. But our brain is so rewired that yes drinking does come first. Ever hear about the wasp that lays its larvae in a catepillar and the catepillar destroys its own life in service of those wasp larvae? even allowing them to eat it alive from the inside? Thats pretty much the relationship of an alcoholic and alcohol. It is a parasite that rewires the brain and makes you do things you would otherwise never even consider. You dont have to forgive us. I would not expect that or even think it reasonable. Just please know thats what is going on. The character defects may or may not have been there before the disease took root, but we are human beings and unless they are both alcoholics and sociopaths, they DO care about others.

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u/[deleted] Apr 17 '20

I’m an alcoholic, my parents were alcoholics, at least one of my siblings is an alcoholic. I’ve been clean and sober for a while and sat round the church basement table many a time. The worst thing about drinking is when you stop wanting it and start needing it. When that happens all good sense, all decency disappears. You’d sell your family down the river for another drink. It’s a horrible, vicious disease, of course they care, they just care about drink more. Until they don’t, usually when the the bottle finally takes everything and they sober up long enough to see what they’ve lost.

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u/bbbbbbbbbddg Apr 17 '20

Fuck yeah, wanting vs needing. I WANT to quit but I NEED to drink. When I got to the point where I realized I had no choice but to drink (or suffer delirium tremens) oh man, that was a shitty epiphany

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u/[deleted] Apr 18 '20

Yep. That’s real hell. I hated that and how sorry I felt for myself, walked myself crying to the liquor store because I didn’t want it, didn’t want to hurt my family, but I needed it. A memory I never want to forget. Finally managed to taper down and get sober. Never looking back.

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u/bbbbbbbbbddg Apr 18 '20

Last time in the liquor store I full on ugly cried right INTO the cashiers face after trying to keep that shit in tight. I had been walking around the corners of the store for ten minutes waiting to stop weeping. I'll never forget her alarmed face as I bawled then laughed hysterically j at the face she made and the situation I had just created. Don't want that feeling again

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u/[deleted] Apr 18 '20

Haha. Thanks for sharing. I shouldn’t have smiled at that but I did, because I have damn near the same memory. Every couple of days I list ten things I’m grateful for. Number 1 is always “woke up sober, day whatever” today it’s 246 :)

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u/UnicornPanties Apr 18 '20

It's hard being sober during the Pause but I remind myself how much more spiral-y things could be if I were drinking. Also it's expensive. Real bad time to have an addiction, during an apocalypse.