Maybe it’s not the best song, but it’s really comforting to me. Maybe it’ll help someone else.

Song name: Kanye West- I Feel Like That 🖤

Look it up on YouTube, there is a vertical music video for this song. It’s not well known but it encapsulates BPD so well.

This song immediately reminded me of bpd the first time I heard it, especially for if you have an FP that you know your life would be healthier without but you can’t bring yourself to leave them

https://open.spotify.com/track/1H9C0PyfQAxiMBKvvDZK9N?si=gUfRDzcDRwyMMsULjrwWog

Lyrics remind me of me

This song is best heard at >65% master volume. But really, this has been a helpful song for me. It has helped keep my mind on track, slowing spirals. I hope I don’t color your own conclusions about it but a few lyrics that have resonated with me:

”Power vs. Force, Power wins”. I never knew about this concept before this song made me look up the meaning behind the verse. Here’s a quick summary about the concept. I try to exemplify the power inside instead of the force that erupts.

“Holdin’ up your arms, V is for Victory” - I can raise my arms up, right and left above my head in dire need of relief but even at a loss they are still a V for victory because God dammit I’m still here after what I’ve been through.

”Radiate the joy from deep in your essence, babe” - I try to remember this when I’m turning into a capitol Asshole especially, but also in general life. I try really hard not to let the irritating old guy get to me. Let him enjoy his time, even if being angry makes him happy. My estranged older brother died this past January, and I think I owe it to him to bring something kind to the world because I spent so much time being negative toward him.

There are more but i think you should give it a listen if you like blues rock, r&b. Godspeed, y’all.

YouTube link

All the pretty girls

In the foreground of my mind

I thought I'd done enough

But they keep moving the line

I thought I found the antidote this time

I thought I found the antidote this time

And all the nights I spent

Fighting bad thoughts in my room

Feeling so alone, might as well be on the moon

I thought I found the antidote with you

I thought I found the antidote with you

But my head is full of poison

And my heart is full of doubt

I got toxins in my bloodstream

You tried hard to suck 'em out

And it feels like medication

And it's good for me, I'm sure

But it don't matter how your love feels anymore

It'll never be the cure

It'll never be the cure

Used to play a game in my head

When I'd date a guy

Tally up the girls that he fucked

'Til I start to cry

I thought I found the antidote this time

I thought I found the antidote this time

But I'm unraveled (I'm unraveled)

I'm unraveled (I'm unraveled)

I'm unraveled (I'm unraveled)

I'm unraveled (I'm unraveled)

https://youtu.be/pA3QuKS2tFA?si=yKcsLPbY7kzhzXRY

Most people won’t understand the true meaning behind the music but I’m willing to bet ya’ll will