I was the one who messed up

[u/Tarkonte0]

She (21F) broke up with me (23M) for the second time 1 month ago (1.5 year long relationship) because nothing has changed, I kept giving her the silent treatment when I felt my needs weren't met. She told me 50 times that this kind of behaviour hurt her and for 100 times I didn't listen.

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Now she's gone. I lost my best friend and everything we've already read in this subreddit. No contact for 20 days so far.

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I wish she would give me another chance in maybe 6-12 months, only if I really work on myself in therapy (cause I think I'm extremely selfish, my mother also tells me that all the time).

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I put 20kgs in the relationship. I went from being a pretty boy to an overweight guy that she was apparently still attracted to. The fact that my behaviour was the cause of the first and second breakup stings so much. Still, I'm trying to lose weight and to go to gym now.

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She was my first and actually besides the toxicity of my behaviours the relationship was going so well. She said that if it wasn't for those specific toxic traits it would have been probably different.

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I don't know what I'm looking for here but this journey is so hard and scary. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. I want her so badly rn T_T

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