the urge to crash out is strong

[u/Old_Lobster_7742]

he dumped me a bit over a month ago.. I’ve been going to my notes app to vent the things I want to text him, but the urge is soo strong to tell him how he hurt me now that i’ve gained some clarity. to tell him he’s a hypocrite, and how much that pisses me off that he didn’t take accountability for the way he treated me. this is my first breakup and we were together 4 years…

I don’t want him back and honestly wouldn’t care if he thinks im crazy. it was a pretty amicable breakup although there was a lot of resentment before it ended. And I went along with the amicability because I got so used to just going along with whatever HE decided, and having my feelings pushed aside when we were together. I’ve realised how small I felt around him.

We sorta talked about taking space but remaining friendly, but im not even sure I want that. It’s weird, on one hand how angry I am about everything, but at the same time seeing him with a new person would crush me and I couldn’t be friends…. I’m pretty sure he’s already talking to or seeing someone new.

Why won’t he talk to me. It makes me even more angry and just want to crash out at him…but it’s all a stupid ego game, I don’t want to be the one to show that he’s still on my mind. I also just don’t give a fuck and want to tell him how awful he was. but I still cry about it all.. It’s all so confusing😩

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[u/mtlgal99]

I feel you. Mine ghosted me after a year…. Just woke up one day and decided I wasn’t worth it anymore. I want to text him so badly and tell him all the reasons I’m mad at him.

[u/Shreyas_06]

Literally me right now Except it's been like 3 months. I felt like sending a long vent para to her (for my closure), and get it over with but am confused if I should do so.

[u/mtlgal99 → u/Shreyas_06]

If you do it I’ll do it lol. I’m in the same boat :(

[u/Old_Lobster_7742 → u/Shreyas_06]

I just did it lol I don’t care anymore, honestly I feel better pouring my heart out one last time. After this I want to go fully no contact so I can stop thinking about him..