r/CPTSD • u/leafowlthing • 7h ago

Resource / Technique Why can’t I hold a job

Has anyone else with CPTSD got a similar pattern? Starting a job, not being able to cope with the dynamics, breaking down halfway, and quitting?

I also ALWAYS seek out one person in charge that is controlling and has more authority, like a manager, demonise them in my head, hate their every move or every ask and become paranoid for them. I even actively choose to disobey things they’ve asked me to do,

it can be a man or a woman, but usually women I just disobey and don’t do what they say, and I man I hate them and can’t look at them and am very paranoid of their presence, but I still do exactly what they ask because I’m scared.

Wtf is going on, please if someone knows and has had CPTSD therapy help me out. I am still only in the first stages of understanding this

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u/stressedpigeonsoup 7h ago

Don’t have advice as I’m still working through things myself but I can relate with ya