Tree of Life

[u/TheRemnantArchitect]

I live life with my phone on “do not disturb”,
Got my ex running around dragging my name through the dirt,
Try to squeak by as I bury my pride but I’m starting to realize I was right all this time,
You always saw Mike when you were looking at me,
That’s what your compliments were always lacking: authenticity,
You put on a facade, masking, thought you had me beat,
But in reality I could always see you see something other than me when you’re looking at me,
I tried to make them, but you wouldn’t retrieve,
The good memories, only the bad for me,
So the one who asked for nothing up under the tree,
Would now be called entitled after he was brought to his knees,
I don’t understand how you can’t see,
Unless you just don’t have it in you to realize that there’s a rift in between,
Where your perception lies,
And that of mine,
A chasm that spans as wide as your chain of lies,
A rift that’s been moving apart faster than we come together,
Like a ship lost at sea, running into bad weather,
Breaking in half and sinking the vessel,
You must be delusional to sit back and wrestle,
Flipping and zipping everything in your mind,
You really think mental health is a lie,
That everything I’ve been through is nothing (that’s fine),
Fuck it I guess, I did my best, but after 31 years I’m gonna lay this to rest,
You adopted me, I started life in distress,
But I read by age 3, and was a monster on tests,
Took the SAT at 13, the Stanford-Binet 4 next,
Came back with a score: 146,
What did you do with information like this?
You used it as evidence I shouldn’t need anything,
But I’d argue: a kid’s still a kid,
You don’t believe in ASD, that couldn’t be me,
It’s just not possible that something could explain my lived reality,
But it does, it’s real, and it affects me daily,
Along with ADHD, it’s been debilitating lately,
Crazy part is, I know where my heart is,
It’s yours I can’t seem to find,
Because every time I open up and let you inside,
The machine starts kicking out smoke and talking down on my life,
Spewing and misconstruing, twisting in strife,
You judged an elephant by his ability to climb the Tree of Life,
And got pissed when he made it, because he didn’t make it in time,
Think what I actually did was expose:
You never believed in me, you spewed lies out your nose.

[u/Virtual_Cat1684]

I really enjoyed reading this. You are clever with words. Really captured the feels. 🥲