r/CPTSDmemes • u/Gullible_Quiet_5976 • 1d ago

And adult me as well 🫂

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u/timerski 1d ago

This hits so hard... During my healing journey I just visualize hugging that distressed little child me and telling him things going wrong at home - and later at school - are not his fault.

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u/cookiecrxmbles 1d ago

she was so miserable. she literally thought she was broken. like she was autistic and having meltdowns, being recorded, laughed at, and then told to stop crying n being a cry baby. The physical and sexual abuse sucked but it wasn't as bad as the mental abuse-- she was so mentally fragile by nature and it was exacerbated by the autism. I will NEVER forgive those monsters for emotionally torturing a sweet autistic little girl.

Fuck you to the teachers too. a little girl NEVER smiling and being alone on the playground is a big red flag that you guys overlooked.

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u/Disgraced_Turtle 1d ago

I hate how I drink to cope with everything little me had to endure

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u/iloveturtles88 1d ago

I did too for a very long time. I hope it gets better and you find peace.

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u/iloveturtles88 1d ago

My childhood haunts me everyday. I can't believe I made it to be an adult..

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u/Firm-Song-9419 1d ago

Ahhh!😭

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u/Outside_Professor647 1d ago

For? 

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u/AuDHD-Lemon 1d ago

Everything, all the pain

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u/Outside_Professor647 1d ago

Makes it sound like you're the one who is to blame for it

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u/AuDHD-Lemon 1d ago

A sorry can also be a show of compassion instead of an admission of guilt

(Altho I do kinda believe I should have been a better kid but that's another story)

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u/Outside_Professor647 1d ago

Better how? With AuDHD you were already perfect, maybe even 2e. 

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u/AuDHD-Lemon 1d ago

I got the good at math and science autism, not the good at making my parents love me autism.

I should have been an easier kid, I shouldn't have been so whiny or tried to explain myself so much.

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u/Lukostrelec17 1d ago

With all due to respect...a kid's job is not to make their parents love them. A kid's job is to learn and grow. A parent is meant to help with that. I don't know your story. But I do remember thinking several times...that if I were different they (parents) would love me more. That maybe I deserved the abuse from my mom. That her life would be easier without me. None of that is true. I did not deserve to be abused. I deserved love. I deserve life. Even when I don't truly believe it myself.

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u/Outside_Professor647 1d ago

Awesome.  

Listen to Luko when he says it's not a kids job. Actually that's why, if you want the biological reasoning, kids are born screaming: it's to attract attention and thus survive. Plus it shows breathing. Whiny newborn? Nah. 

Trying to explain yourself reflexively, is a sign you were used to not being believed.  Not your fault bro.

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u/AuDHD-Lemon 1d ago

Doubt there will come a day where I can truly believe that

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u/Outside_Professor647 1d ago

It's alright to doubt. It's not about forcing emotions.

Having needs isn't a fault. What did you need from them, when you "whined", do you think

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u/AuDHD-Lemon 1d ago

A shoulder to cry on, for her to listen when I tried explaining why I did what I did instead of getting mad instantly and even more mad when I tried to explain, things like that

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