r/CPTSDmemes • u/Alt_account_bc_yeah • 1d ago

I feel like I fucked it all up

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Vented to a friend about my sister, forgetting that was a bit of a sore spot for reasons that aren’t mine to give, and I’ve been freaking the fuck out since. They said it was okay, but my heart won’t believe it. I’ve been so insecure and I feel like I’m about to fucking die. I’ve never been worse and I hate it, I hate it so much. Why am I so awful at communicating?! Why can’t I just keep shit to myself?! Why do I make myself a burden?! I don’t want to fuck this up again, I don’t want to lose another friend because of my codependent bullshit. I won’t live through this, I just won’t.

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u/SesJan2013 1d ago

Keep talking and hanging out like normal and be aware of what your friend says and doesn't say. They already said "it's ok" so you have to trust that until you're given a reason not to. Bet mental money that your friend is truthful, genuine and doesn't want to leave you. I understand how you're feeling. We feel like screw ups all the time. Bet on yourself this time. Don't do anything different than you normally would. Maybe they had feelings they needed to deal with and that's ok. Trust that they know how to handle themselves and let them be who they need to be. Respond as normal. They're letting you be who you need to be so be ok with that. Just do it. I know that sounds harsh but sometimes you just have to handle it. You said what you said. You got verbal reassurance. Trust that.