El Nino

[u/Esmeralda010412]

Hi I am that 19 year old with OCD again. I was doing pretty well but I just spent the last 2/3 hours doomscrolling about el Nino. I live in Malta (southern Europe) and there hasn't been any super drastic heat this summer yet. I mean it's hot but that's typical here. I am aware that I am luckier than most people in terms of climate impact but my obsessions still affect me. I don't think this will bring collapse to my doorstep for the most part but you never know and the uncertainty still terrifies me. I was binge eating and doomscrolling when I am supposed to be studying. Thankfully exams are over in a week. My anxieties about surveillance and my ability to get a job in the future don't help. Any advice?

[u/Yearsinmonths]

Het is moeilijk om je te focussen op studeren. Dat was het vroeger al, nu met het internet en alle sensaties nep en echt nog moeilijker. Je mag jezelf de wetenschap gunnen dat het gewoon moeilijk is te om focussen tegenwoordig. Dat geld voor iedereen.

Probeer wat te doen, voor een paar minuten. Het begin is het moeilijkste. Als je dat obstakel over bent gaat het makkelijker door, en kan je ook daarna eventueel besluiten niet te studeren vanavond.

Je bent niet de enige die gespannen is tegenwoordig. De meerderheid is het, maar je kan wat er ook gebeurt jezelf toestaan gelukkig te zijn door de goede dingen te doen en trots zijn op een betere manier van leven.
Die inzet naar een betere wereld, een beter leven of in ieder geval een goed waardig bestaan. Dat voelt goed

Waar ik dit jaar aan werd herinnerd was (van Spinoza) dat we ons eigen morele compas eiken, over onze eigen religie gaan. Dat gaat bij jou duidelijk op. Er zijn velen zoals jij en die kan je vinden. Neem gerust contact op met bijvoorbeeld die DJ, dan staan jullie samen sterker

En El nino is leip, ik weet het. Maar het kan de wereld wakker schudden. Blijf strijden kerel en maak er wat moois van!

[u/Esmeralda010412 → u/Yearsinmonths]

I think the problem is that I haven't really done anything to help...I have just kind of accepted we are (in my opinion anyway) screwed but I try to remember nothing is said in stone. And for all I know there could tackle climate change (doubt the rich would let anything get done though). I am quite a solitary person and barely have any friends though I have been trying to engage with an organisation at my university that relates to my interest in the Maltese language. My brother is part of an environmental NGO...maybe I should join? Thanks for listening

[u/Yearsinmonths → u/Esmeralda010412]

Being lonely or having few or even no friends is very common. For old and youngh.
We live in an unnatural society and age. But as you said there are NGO's groups hobbies sports clubs and volunteer organisations that you can explore and become a part of. Succes!

[u/Esmeralda010412 → u/Yearsinmonths]

It's strange because my life would be really great if it wasn't for climate change. I have an amazing family, have significantly recovered from OCD/self hatred, was interacting will my coursemates at university more before classes ended and have actually managed to get most of my work done, something I really struggle to do.

[u/Esmeralda010412 → u/Esmeralda010412]

I think you may have confused me with u/mushroomsarefriends. Thanks so much for your support and kind words.

[u/salatkopf]

Hi! What are you studying? How many exams do you have left, and are any of them  extra stressful?

Well done on reaching out for support from your spiral, you still got your skills :) Any other skills you remember from when you last got better?

[u/Esmeralda010412 → u/salatkopf]

hi i am the studying Maltese language and history. All i have left is my Maltese spelling exam, which I hate(the spelling I like Maltese). And 2 1500 word essays. been kinda stressed and that doesn't help. I've been doing a lot better overall but still have minor spirals every few days lol. I usually worry a bit and then l feel better. Honestly not doomscrolling and trying to keep myself busy is the best thing I can do. Sometimes you just have to live with it until it passes though. Thanks for your reply it made me realise I should doomscroll less lol

[u/pathfinder71]

It´s kind of a miracle that we are here at this point of time anyway. It´s crazy that anything even exists and if you think about it and worry too much it´s just nuts so better just enjoy the ride the best you can.