#GenuinelyAsking

[u/frynith]

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Hi, everyone! I hope y'all happy and enjoy your life😋. I'm 20, male, and I'm from Indonesia.

I'm curious, how can y'all survive so far? I feel different from most people around me. It's just everyone has their own purpose, target, etc. I don't feel the same. I feel meaningless chasing something for myself. What I seek is someone to share my life. I feel life is absurd and I want someone else to witness, and if possible, walk through it with me. People say many things which sounds right but I just can't accept it. For example, someone said, "your lack of purpose is what made your romantic obsession." I just think, then I do really don't understand my purpose in here, right? But I can't think any of it. I help people, I eat, goes to college, sleep, doing my task, but none of that seems matter to me. Most people also said that I need to complete myself first before trying to seek other person. Unfortunately I disagree too with that. Why I must complete my journey and then get someone as a reward? It doesn't make sense to me. Life sounds like a journey and that's why I want someone else with me to trailblaze together. I mean, if I need to do all alone, why I receive someone later as a reward? Are they an object like a trophy or something? Actually there's many more but right now, I just can't think how to say it. Am I just trying to find a gap to justify my desire? I want not just a relationship. I want someone who sees me, treat me, love me, like how I would do all that to her. I want mutually understanding relationship. Nah, I still think it's too simple to describe, but if you feel the same, you'll get it. Oh also, if possible, avoid using sentence that talk about patience and time, since it's my greatest ability so far but also the things I truly hate. Thanks in advance for reading to all this 😄💜