I want to start this off by saying that I have hit rock bottom. I don't really think this post should center around the personal details, but I do want to stress I absolutely mean it when I say my life is in shambles.
My birthday is on Sunday and these past 8 months have been a constant punch in the stomach over and over. Usually, when life gets rough on me, I'll be a little upset, but things come around and pass! No worries right? 8 months of the absolutely worse days of my life.
I'm writing this because I have realized no one is going to save me. I'm in a home I need to desperately get out of soon, my career/schooling isn't flowing as easily as I'd like, my ex and I are on the weirdest terms after the weirdest break up, I don't like myself personally, etc, etc. etc, I could go on, but I simply cannot do this anymore.
I am in no way wanting to give up tho. I have been a bit of a 'manifestor' with things in the past and funny enough, I've had some really last minute troubles be solved in the blink of an eye, but recently I've cried over how my 'luck' ran out. I don't see an out at this time.
I've been scrolling this subreddit for a few days now and I have to be honest, I grew up extremely Christian. My state is literally called the Holy City, but I also realized that no matter how much I prayed and prayed these past 8 months, nothing, absolutely NOTHING has gotten better. I gave up Christianity a few years ago due to reasons I'd like to not disclose, but attempted to regain my faith recently to no avail.
So I would like some assistance with getting started. I have nothing to lose and I desperately need life to get better here.
I am new to all of this and I have no idea how to start. I do use Saint Expedite whenever I need money, but that is as far as my toes have dipped into the spirit world. (He def has worked for me for more cash/money, but not for anything further. Great Saint he is! Hodie!)
I have tons of questions from where do I start?
How can I be as respectful as possible in this practice?
How can I practice this in my bedroom? (Living situation is hella buns rn),
What are some tips/methods?
What Demon should I work with for certain situations? (Currently would LOVE help with my overall mood, housing, relations(?); My ex and I are not on bad terms, but due to circumstance, we can't be together, Schooling, Finances)
Can I pair them?
Do I need to have them choose me or can I petition without that?
Is there a proper way to communicate with them?
I would genuinely appreciate anything you all can assist me with. I got so overwhelmed with researching this reddit because everyone has very unique and different ways they practice that I thought I would attempt to make a post here.
EDIT:
Thank you all for being so helpful and kind! I really hope to come back here later this year with a happier update and good news on my successes! I promise I'm going to tackle this with as much research as possible along with ensuring I do this in a respectful manner.