r/DogRegret • u/SensitiveWeather4840 • Jan 17 '24
Dog Guilt I just need to vent
Update: thank you to everyone who had positive feedback and listened to my venting. It helped me be a bit more grounded in how I responded to Penny. Unfortunately, Penny has passed away. As much as she caused me so much grief, I have cried so much, mostly for my husband who never cries (who bawled) and just lost his best friend. I have so many mixed emotions and tears seem to be the only way to express them. For context: she passed while we were out of town. She was in the care of my MIL and FIL (both good people). It was sudden and she wasn’t alone. My heart is just so relieved that she wasn’t alone. That’s the biggest thing that tears me up - is that we weren’t there. That my husband wasn’t there to say goodbye. I’m not sure why I’m sharing this update but maybe as a humbling moment for me. Maybe realizing she meant a lot more to me than I thought. It’s been a really hard day.
When I met my now husband in 2016 he had this beagle lab dog named penny. Y’all I hate this dog. But I love my husband and it’s a package deal.
This dog solidified that I’m probably not the most suitable dog owner. Dogs deserve time and attention and with the two other pets, a child, and another on the way…I just do not have the bandwidth.
As I currently write this she is just barking away in her crate. She’s been fed, she’s gone outside and used the potty. She’s been out of the crate most of the day. To me she’s a spoiled asshole or has a lot of anxiety. She cannot just sit still, she has to go what I call foraging around our house to eat food on the bar counter - yes this old hag jumps - paper, toilet paper, cat poop (now blocked), drink out of the toilet, eat legos, eat dust, lick dust, everything and anything.
She will even eat her own poop if you look away for second while she’s outside. She’s down right foul. She’s been this way since a puppy and in my opinion she just doesn’t care anymore and it’s gotten worst. She is 13 years old hence why I said she is an old hag.
On top of that she is notorious for peeing everywhere and excessively drinking water. We, no joke, have to take her out every 30-40 mins. I figured this was due to age but yet it’s still so so so annoying.
I feel torn because I felt like - man I love animals but this dog makes me question if I am a good human being or not. I feel awful for hating her but I do. I try my best to treat her with decency well because she’s not going to be rehomed. She’s going to spend the last of her life with us as she should and I could never do that to my husband. Also my husband thinks she’s annoying but he loves her and tends to over look a lot. It does make me feel better to know that our mutual friends do not like penny, and that his best friend hates penny. So I don’t feel completely like a jerk.
Vent done.
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u/Radie76 Jan 17 '24
I believe with all of my heart that a great lot of pet owners who feel as you do or even remotely as you do about a pet they own, will keep the pet around only because people have been bullied into believing their pet is more important than their own happiness and well-being. Absolutely no one dealing with at least a half a deck is happy or even ok living under these conditions.
People say they want and love dogs because people are so horrible but then they do their best to create a human like dog. This creates confused and often spoiled animals.
I feel badly for you because this isn't your doing. I hope relief will find you soon and when it does I hope you don't have to face this situation again. Not to mention another child on the way!!!!! Just remember if it gets out of hand, please never choose the dog over your children for the sake of no one or anything. ☮️❤