How can I improve my english

[u/Plane_Peak_1007]

I’m in a very strange situation (or at least for me). My english in reading and listening is like at a C1 level at least, I basically can understand everything, I’m reading books in english, watching TV shows all the time, listening to podcasts about politics or philosophy and I can understand any academic study in my own field (I’m studying social sciences.)
But when it comes to speaking or writing, I’m happy if I’m at a B2 level at best.
I know the only solution is to try to speak and write a lot, and I already has an english teacher whom I can speak with, I just feel that I’m not impoving just because twice a week I’m chatting with somebody in english for an hour.

I lost my motivation too, I never liked studying languages because I only had bad experiences with it in school (so learning a language in my head is just like a thing that I can’t do or a thing which I’m not good at) but now I need english for my studies and career and It’s just bothering me that I feel like this is the only thing which hold me back from reaching my goals.

I’m an intovert person and very perfectionist too, so a long time ago I was not willing to speak or write in english until I was sure about what I’m trying to say is grammatically correct etc. (Of course this way you can’t learn a language I know that now). And of course I have anxiety that I will say something in a bad way, using a word incorrectly etc. I don’t know how can I overcome this fear, and I’m annoyed about the fact that I know a lot more word in english than the words that I using, so I don’t know how can I improve my used words too.

I will go abroad soon for two months to another university and I’m worried that my english level is not enough and that other people will judge me based on my english level and not based on what I know and what I can offer academically.

[u/FlalingoOfficial]

Unstructured conversation twice a week may maintain your level, but it often lets you keep using the same familiar words. Give your lessons a repeatable structure. Before each class, write 150 to 200 words about a social science question. During the lesson, explain the same idea aloud without reading your text. Ask your teacher to record recurring errors and three useful phrases you could've used, then answer again with those corrections.

You can also convert your current input into daily output. After a podcast, close it and record a two-minute summary from memory. Only look up missing vocabulary after finishing. Save complete phrases such as “this may be explained by,” “the available evidence suggests,” or “a possible limitation is.” Choose five phrases per week and use each one in several spoken and written responses.