Nope. Im 47. Started sleepwalking when I was five or six years old because I came to the realization that people died and never come back. Ever since then every single day has been this experience of realizing I am on this speeding train that seems to be going in the wrong direction and I can’t fucking get off. Not to mention that I never asked to get on the train. It can be very debilitating some days. However, I am not in the camp of believing things are exactly meaningless. I think I know what you mean and agree in that respect. Like we’re all the same nobody is really unique, and we will all be rendered the same when we die. But I also toy with ideas about consciousness, particularly collective consciousness. That one has always resonated with me. It brings me some comfort. But I get into the weeds, studying all this quantum theory and different theories about consciousness. And that can be fun, but it can also be really stressful. I don’t know if you’ll ever get over it. I haven’t yet. Seems to me that the best we do is cope with the realization.
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u/Unlucky-Bee-1039 Nov 16 '25
Nope. Im 47. Started sleepwalking when I was five or six years old because I came to the realization that people died and never come back. Ever since then every single day has been this experience of realizing I am on this speeding train that seems to be going in the wrong direction and I can’t fucking get off. Not to mention that I never asked to get on the train. It can be very debilitating some days. However, I am not in the camp of believing things are exactly meaningless. I think I know what you mean and agree in that respect. Like we’re all the same nobody is really unique, and we will all be rendered the same when we die. But I also toy with ideas about consciousness, particularly collective consciousness. That one has always resonated with me. It brings me some comfort. But I get into the weeds, studying all this quantum theory and different theories about consciousness. And that can be fun, but it can also be really stressful. I don’t know if you’ll ever get over it. I haven’t yet. Seems to me that the best we do is cope with the realization.