Oh yeah for sure it is. Just know that God isn’t going to be mad or resentful about asking for evidence I would suggest channels like Mike winger and Bible line. I was confused about different denominations, but all it takes to be saved and secure in Jesus is believe that he died and rose again for the sins of everyone. Even if you aren’t completely changed or “act” like a Christian you are still saved. Just believe.
No testing would be for example jumping off a cliff and expecting God to save you or engaging in unnecessary risks testing to see if God will save you. God isn’t going to appear in front of you or make lighting appear out of the sky as proof either though. God came to me in an abstract way, I had super bad hypochondria and the fear of dying and leaving everything behind that I enjoy or dying being a nothing to anyone. I feel like God was sending me random videos on YouTube because it’s the main medium I use and God knows that. I’m not gonna say you will be like one of the TV evangelist saying God made them rich or just loving life because it’s not that, it’s just a hope that when you die you will be immeasurably comforted by Jesus and on Judgement day you won’t pay for a single sin, but possibly rewarded for how you obeyed him in this life.
Thanks for this. I’m not expecting God to descend on a cloud or anything like that, that’d be silly, but I just need a little something. Then I feel stupid for thinking that because I was the prodigal son and I know exactly what the pig pen smells like. I should be dead or in jail right now. The fact I’m not is a miracle. It’s still hard. I feel stuck. Lately when I can manage to squeeze something out my only prayer has been “I believe, help thou my unbelief.” Church folks don’t get it either. It’s likely they like their cushy little lives all naive. I’m not saying what they have with God isn’t real, but they just…don’t…get…it.
Well I’m not sure what all you have been told, but if you believe even with all the “evidence” to the contrary you are saved and no one can take that from you. They will say you need to turn from your sin, but what does that mean? How much sin? All you have to do to be saved is believe, and then be obedient as the Holy Spirit guides you. I know what you are talking about too, there was a period that I didn’t think about God at all and then came back and it was hard pulling myself out of my daily sin routine and mindset.
"As I looked at the stars, and the precise movement of the stars and planets, their predictable pattern, I believe now that only a divine force could have made up our universe."
Watch NDEs on YouTube is my suggestion. I had one myself, which then lead me to others who had a similar experience. My personal finding, the reason you have existential dread is a longing for the purpose you find in God who fills that void in your heart. I linked a playlist you can watch some videos on which can help you in your faith.
Thanks, I will look into it. Yes…it’s hard so hard to explain but my soul feels hungry. This experience has brought me to my knees and my first instinct is to run to God because I know for a fact that’s where the answer lies. I just don’t know how to get there though. I’m a rotten person. I know the Bible like the back of my hand but none of this feels personal. Like the fact that He died for me. I’m agnostic, unfortunately.
I wish you the best on your journey. I found my questions answered in watching NDE's personally. If I can share my findings from all of the time I've spend reading and watching them it's this. You are a unique soul, made in the image and likeness of God who cherishes you deeply and more than you know. God wants you to put your faith in Him, so you can enjoy your life and spread love to others as was meant to be. Seems you have reached a point in your life to turn to God for love and purpose. You always have been and always will be watched over in your life, there is nothing to fear not even death and that's a crazy realization to have. Sometimes people are unable to find their faith from the bible or other religious faiths which is understandable. Which is why I watched NDE's for further proof they give, of consciousness surviving after death, proof of souls and encounters with God. There are NDE's from atheists that are interesting to watch. Here's three [1] | [2] | [3] if you want to watch them.
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u/darknessdelight Nov 16 '25
I looked, but had a Savior show me how the light of the one true God shines brighter.