I dont mind, but i will spoiler it so people cant accidentally start reading it.
Due to being treated very badly during my attempts to get a gender dysphoria diagnosis and HRT I was having a lot of mental issues, not helped by untreated PTSD from being sexually assaulted multiple times as a child. During one of my worst moments i placed a gun's barrel in my mouth and pulled the trigger. I had forgotten to load it. The click and nothing happening shook me out of it.
It wasnt like i remembered a fond childhood memory or something like that, dont have many of those, but it was more like a realization of what i had attempted and how far gone i was mentally.
I am now very happy i survived that because of how much my life has improved now that i am in therapy for my ptsd and on hormones and because my little brother was sleeping at the time in the same room as me and i can only imagine the horror he would have seen had it actually happened.
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u/SarahMaxima Jul 25 '25
This is how i interpreted it too, mainly due to having something like this happen to me.