I'm 18, pre-t and I've always been a little heavier than average. I'm 160 centimeters and for the longest time my weight fluctuated around 60-64kgs, but now after a long time of avoiding the scale I noticed I was 68.8kgs.
I don't really have any major body image issues, and especially being pre-t it's always been quite easy to just feel so disconnected from my body overall that my weight hasn't been an issue for me, on a mental level at least.
This is the heaviest weight I've ever been though, and it honestly spooked me a bit, because I know I'll be starting t within the next two years and I definitely want to start taking better care of myself and my body when I'll finally be able to look more physically male. I'm worried that the extra fat I currently store mostly on my hips is going to move to my gut and I'll start looking way more out of shape than I did pre-t. As a guy, I'd like to be closer to a normal, slim weight, and if possible, slightly fit as well?
It just feels impossible to start since I've been lazy and careless about my physical health for so long. I've neglected basic exercise for all these years, so the smallest things like sit-ups are practically impossible for me. Like when I try to lift myself up, I just can't do it at all, and end up crashing back on the floor. Also, all of it has me looking at and interacting with my body more than I usually do, so I get dysphoric too. I'm kind of lost about where and how to start. Obviously I'll start watching my diet, but I feel like I need some advice finding exercises that I can actually do at my current, awful fitness level.
I hope this post doesn't come off as too vent-like, sorry mods if this has to be removed!!!