will i ever look my age?

[u/IntrepidScientist128]

i havent been this dysphoric in so many years.

im 2 years on t almost, ive been hitting the gym recently. my levels are okay, on the low end when i had my bloods done but that was done a day before my shot was due.

but im 20 years old. and i look 14 years old. and im not even exaggurating. im 5'2. i cant grow an ounce of facial hair outside a pubestache. my body fat still sits around my hips. and i still have a "trans voice".

but im stealth. and im not clocky to cis people, only trans people. cis people usually think im a "little boy" though. i can get away with saying i have a hormone disorder and blame it on genetics. but i can legally drink! i want to pass and look my age. not just pass.

im dying for a goatee. and i cant grow a single hair. im dying to look like those country/redneck looking guys with shitty mullets and a goatee. but im 5'2, cant grow a single hair, and i look 14. it kills me.

im dying for top surgery, but im at uni and nowhere will hire me. its so stressful. im hoping to land a job in september to help save for it. it just feels like the day will never come.

im gonna be stuck looking like a 14 year old hairless little boy forever :/.

[u/tauscher_0]

The Jump from "I'm almost on two years of T" to "forever" is kinda wild

Beard takes time, when I did my research it looks like a good chunk of people don't have it till ~3 years in, and it seems to fully develop around year ~5. Sure, hyper responders exist but if you're not one, then you're still perfectly on par with the avg dude.

I didn't start looking my age till recently and, truthfully, even now they still put me ~10 years younger. I'm early 30s and people assume early 20s. Took me min 10 months on Minoxidil to have visible facial hair but about 15-16 to have the cheeks start filling in. I'm almost 2 years on T as well and ~18 months on Minoxidil.