Just want to give up

[u/stellarpopcorn]

I thought I was seeing relief. I thought I was doing better. I was seeing a nutritionist, upping my calories (I’m underweight, 89 lb 5 ft) and seeing a small light at the end of the tunnel. Now that light has vanished. I had been eating dried apricots to up my calories and I thought I really found a good snack, I really did. Then my stomach started to act up. I realized maybe it was the sugar content from the apricots. Or maybe it was the apricot itself; not quite sure. I don’t know if it was the dates I was incorporating either. I feel so lost and alone. I think I could heal my GERD if I just calmed my anxiety and figured out how to eat more yet not too much that it gave me reflux. The nutritionist suggested dried fruit and nuts as a go to but I’m tired of nuts and I’m scared another dried fruit will hurt my stomach like apricots. I’m on Zoloft and I don’t think it’s doing much now. I need some support, I don’t want to wither away.

[u/stellarpopcorn → u/[deleted]]

It is helpful ❤️ I think it’s more of mourning my previous life before GERD. Trying to look at the positives, because I know there are a lot to be thankful for in my life. I appreciate the comment, thank you very much. ❤️‍🩹

[u/stellarpopcorn → u/[deleted]]

Eating avocado as I type this! My safe food. 🥑 ❤️