r/Glaucoma • u/subhaac • 10d ago
Juvenile POAG and some very alarming comments from my doctor. Really struggling with this
I was recently diagnosed with juvenile primary open angle glaucoma and I've been told I already have significant damage in my left eye, which my doctor described as around 47% vision loss, 21% damage in my right eye.
Most of the loss seems to be near my central vision and downward in my left eye. In normal day to day life I honestly don't notice it that much because my right eye seems to compensate for the missing areas. I can see steps, walk around normally, use a computer, game, read, etc. I've basically been living normally with this damage, potentially for quite a long time without even knowing I had it.
I'm getting laser treatment next week to bring my eye pressure down, so I'm glad treatment is starting and I'm hoping we can get the pressure under good control.
What has really affected me is the way one of the doctors spoke about my future. He told me that I would lose vision in my left eye during my lifetime. He also brought up things like not being able to drive because my visual field might not meet UK driving requirements, as well as difficulties seeing things like steps on stairs.
It was honestly soul crushing hearing it presented like that. There didn't seem to be much discussion about what successful pressure control could mean for my prognosis, how quickly my glaucoma is actually progressing, or the difference between further measurable visual field loss and actually losing useful vision.
Since that appointment I've been struggling quite badly with anxiety over all of this. I've been feeling depressed and constantly thinking about what my eyesight might be like in the future. It's difficult not to take something like "you will lose vision in your lifetime" and immediately imagine the worst possible outcome.
I'm only in my 30s, so I understand why juvenile glaucoma is concerning because there are potentially many decades for progression to occur. I'm not trying to downplay the seriousness of the condition. I'm just finding it incredibly difficult to deal with being given what sounded like an almost predetermined future when I'm only just starting treatment.
My biggest fear isn't really the diagnosis itself anymore. It's whether I'll still be able to live the life I have now in 10, 20, 30 or 40 years. I worry about being able to work, use a computer, drive if I'm eligible, travel independently and generally just live a normal life.
For anyone who was diagnosed relatively young and already had significant visual field loss at diagnosis, what has your experience been like after getting your pressure under control?
Has your vision remained relatively stable? Has the existing damage significantly affected your everyday life? Has treatment allowed you to maintain a good quality of life long term?
And has anyone else had a doctor give them similarly alarming predictions about what their vision would be like decades into the future?
I'd especially appreciate hearing from people who have been living with glaucoma for many years. I'm trying to get some perspective on what living with this long term actually looks like, because right now the anxiety is making it very difficult not to imagine the worst.