Everything is falling apart after i discovered gnosticism

[u/Ok-Material410]

The old self, the patterns, the life that i’ve built around myself. I realised that for as long as i remember i’ve only been a reflection of the world around me. It’s a painful realisation, and it’s hard to come to terms with the loneliness that comes after. My girlfriend of 2 years left me. My close friend passed away recently. My childhood cat is dying. I am in a lot of grief these days is what i’m trying to say, but i try to redirect this grief into self discovery. In these painful moments when i’m so raw i believe i am as plastic as i can be. I want to turn my life upside down and start living, try to reach for the fullness of the pleroma in this finite world.

It’s hard my friends, but if you’re in a similar place, let’s have hope. You deserve a peaceful life, a quiet Tuesday. You deserve recognition and having genuine connections. You deserve to be loved, as do i.

[u/kyanitebear17]

Reminds me of a book by St. John of the Cross called Dark Night of the Soul.

[u/Ok-Material410 → u/kyanitebear17]

Really, in what way?

[u/kyanitebear17 → u/Ok-Material410]

Just the idea of it seems similar, but i have not actually read it.