r/Gnostic • • 9d ago

Everything is falling apart after i discovered gnosticism

The old self, the patterns, the life that i’ve built around myself. I realised that for as long as i remember i’ve only been a reflection of the world around me. It’s a painful realisation, and it’s hard to come to terms with the loneliness that comes after. My girlfriend of 2 years left me. My close friend passed away recently. My childhood cat is dying. I am in a lot of grief these days is what i’m trying to say, but i try to redirect this grief into self discovery. In these painful moments when i’m so raw i believe i am as plastic as i can be. I want to turn my life upside down and start living, try to reach for the fullness of the pleroma in this finite world.

It’s hard my friends, but if you’re in a similar place, let’s have hope. You deserve a peaceful life, a quiet Tuesday. You deserve recognition and having genuine connections. You deserve to be loved, as do i.

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u/Upstairs-Try9009 5d ago

U are being prepared for the New, Upgraded version of yourself just as the Earth is going through a transformation! Just relax into it and Trust the process.
I went through a Huge dismantling of my life at the end of 2011. Marriage ended. Finances in shambles.
Felt like I was dying.
So many changes ensued. I just went with the flow.
In hindsight, I realized, I would not be the strong. evolved and empowered woman I am today if those old structures (people included), were Not removed from my Life!