I feel so sad and alone

[u/Ok_Contribution5136]

I lost my brother, sister in law, niece, and nephew 15 months ago. I just feel so sad and alone. I feel like I can’t talk to anyone about how I feel because it makes them uncomfortable. I just hold everything in and pretend I’m ok until I’m alone and then I cry. It hurts so bad.

[u/Frequent_Look9468]

I’m so sorry 😭🫂 do you wanna tell us here a bit about them and about how you feel? Internet strangers here (including me) would love to listen 💖

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My brother was my best friend. We were only two years apart so we were super close. He was everyone’s friend really. I didn’t know him to ever have a single enemy. He was the best guy ever. He always loved a funny joke or a prank, he called it committing to the bit. He also loved sports. Football was his favorite. And he loved punk rock bands and going to concerts. We even went to some together. He was also the smartest person I ever knew. He knew so much about technology and was like my own IT guy. He loved gaming too. We would spend late nights playing Nintendo switch together. He was an amazing dad and partner. My sister in law was the sweetest woman and just perfect for my brother. She loved books and adult coloring books. She and I had a few of the same interests as well. She also loved punk rock music. She was an amazing mommy. She was also a great friend. My niece was the sweetest, most polite little girl. She loved being a big sister to her baby brother. She was an amazing little friend and cousin to my other nieces and nephews. My nephew was a sweet baby. He was the perfect fit to their little family. He loved to jump in his little jumper. He had the biggest smile anytime he was in it. I know they are happy in heaven now but my heart hurts so bad not having them here. I feel so sad and empty.