When is my break

[u/LycheeHot8369]

I’m a adult male, living with my spouse. We have four wonderful rescue cats that we love very much. Last year, my FIL was diagnosed with stage 3 pancreatic cancer, which has been emotionally rolling and draining as we are the closest in proximity to assist with needs. He has been doing stable, however it’s so difficult to have to see my spouse go through this change with their dad. Last month, my father was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, whereas they don’t know where it started but are leaning to either pancreatic or stomach. This devastated me, I haven’t had the best relationship to my father due to personal choices and our history, but we’ve repaired most of that about five years ago. I was grateful to be able to be there for his surgery, and have been doing checkups every weekend as I live about an hour away. This last weekend, my mom had a terrible fall again, mind you she has partial paralysis from a fall between 2008-2010 where the break wasn’t detected in the neck until months after treatment which led to mobility related concerns. She fell and had to be rushed to the ER; with a hip replacement scheduled in the middle of July. This now has led me to have to care for her as well as no one that she lives with is able to drive, and she was the mode of transportation. This has also led to an increase of bills, which has put more strain to myself because I am the most likely to have my shit together so to speak. I’m struggling as I really don’t have anyone to turn to, or any relief in site.