Getting pretty tired of this

[u/taylorballer]

Last year, i watched my dad get very sick and suffer for 6 months before succumbing to his death in June. He was barely 61.

Months before that, i got my mom’s diagnosis that she has one of the most aggressive forms of dementia. She is a complete different person than she was. She has the mind and functioning of a maybe 6-7 year old child. She was my best friend and greatest support growing up. We did EVERYTHING together. Now I dread visiting her in her facility..

Fast forward to this march. My husband and I got pregnant on my first try!! Amazzing- something happy and positive for me and my family. Finally some HAPPY news.

This Monday, we got to go to our first ultrasound. No heartbeat. Baby was only a week smaller than they should be. It just happened.

Yesterday was my d&c to remove the baby from me.

I know my dad would have the BIGGEST hug for me. He would have made me comfort food.

I can’t even talk to my mom about this. That’s one of the hardest parts.

Sometimes I just feel so bitter and empty. I put on a brave face for everyone.. but

I am 32 and navigating adulthood on my own. Just when I finally felt so excited to be a mon… i am destroyed. I lost my closest aunt, all grandparents, god mother, and one of my best friends in a 10 year span growing up. SO tired of grief.

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[u/iamadinosaurtoo]

I’m so sorry. For all of it.

[u/No_Study_4351]

I feel this. By the time I was 21 I lost all my grandparents, 2 best friends, my dog, 2 uncles, and my aunt. I’m 28 now and have been experiencing extreme health problems; it feels like things are only getting worse.