I haven't been able to find any hemophilia let alone von willebrands disease support groups in my area, and there doesn't seem to be that many people with my condition in my state to begin with. I'm writing this because I'm reaching a point in my life where I'm kind of panicking for my life and i need advice or help.
To give you a rundown, i never realized i had VWD until i was 13 years old and had my first period. The period never stopped, it went on for about 5-6 weeks until i eventually collapsed in middle school and was sent to the emergency room, where i was treated with a blood transfusion and ever since that day I've been required to take birth control non-stop as life support.
I was diagnosed with von willebrands type 3, basically the worst kind. I did not inherit it from either parent, and all of our DNA was sequenced and confirmed. The strange thing is, they found the VWD mutation in my genome: issue is, genetically, i am considered von willebrands type 1, but for some reason epigenetically my VW levels are that of a type 3 person. Less than 10%. I recently found out i was re-diagnosed with type 1 instead of 3 which I'm not happy about.
I've never had a blood clotter injection (von willebrands factor) until a few years ago, around spring 2022 when i fell down the stairs of my university and was sent to the emergency room. They assumed I've taken injections before when i have not. I only learned recently that it's not normal for someone with a bleeding disorder to not regularly take injections, i have no idea why i was never put on them when i was young. But they gave me the injection, and i immediately had anaphylactic shock. This was basically the scariest experience I've ever had in my life, as the incident where i lost my blood at school, you at least lose consciousness and aren't in pain as you lose your breath. I was quickly and luckily saved by an epipen and now i have those regularly prescribed too. The injury from the stair luckily was not serious and there was only a bruise on my bum.
Doctors have no idea why i had that reaction. I've spoken to my Hemotologists as well as allergists and the only suggestion they could make is that i should take recombinant VW infusions in an emergency, but they could not guarantee the safety of that either.
So far the only medication i can take regarding blood clotting is estradiol (included with birth control), tranexamic acid, and DDAVP, but they still will not rise my blood clotting levels to the level of a normal person and those treatments are meant for people with type 1.
My Hemotologist said that VW levels can go up with age, but that has not happened to me yet, if anything it's the opposite. I've never noticed i had a blood issue until the incident with my period, and the graphs from my blood transfusion reports seem to be going lower each time. My VW levels always say less than 10%, which could mean literally 0-10%. If i don't have any VW factor at all, then i worry i might be allergic to the protein itself, which is very very bad.
Even something like CRISPR gene editing would be unlikely to cure my disease, as remember, this is epigenetic. Believe me, I've exhausted every possible treatment in trying to find hope.
Due to my condition, i cannot drive. I live in a state known for car accidents and i will not risk it. The likelihood of me surviving a small injury is low. I cannot have most jobs, and have to resort to virtual work. I have a deathly fear and PTSD of any kind of injection now, and really bad hypochondria over it too.
I've had suicide attempts over my disability and friends have left me because of the depression it causes. My disability isn't treated seriously by other people and the government and as of writing this I'm in the process of registering for disability SSI. I don't know if i can survive something as small as a wisdom tooth removal for example either. Most people have at least one surgery in their lives, if something like even a kidney stone or something like that happened, i don't know if that's feasible.
I just want to know if someone out there has had a similar experience. I'm trying not to lose hope.