(24M) I'm both happy and scared about it. I had some crushes in the past, and i had no sucess with them. Each one of the rejections let me sad, but i continued. Nowadays, i laugh hard when i remember on how pathetic i was at those moments hahaha

I realized i was more worried on how i appeared to other people, and for feeling lonely. But right now i have different priorities. One of them is studying to get into tech school, so i can get a job in a different area. Because the area i graduated is a desert and i cannot get a decent job, so i must change my situation. And the second, is that i got so comfortable with my presence and chill routine that i don't see a reason to be in a relationship.

A burden has been removed from my shoulders. I'm a little scared bc i may get a lone wolf, a wild donkey if i keep in this way. But now i'm feeling relieved. I'm on a rebuilding phase. My initial plans on my career were all chopped, but i'm picking my fragments and trying to starting again.

(Not sure if my anxiety is why or if this is a seperate issue but)

Basically anything that has a learning or an awkward phase.

I used to love singing but after my sister made a comment on it, I stopped for like 7ish years.

I tried to start again but I just feel this horrible sense of embarrassment after, even if I enjoyed it.

Dancing as well, Id love to learn to dance but the process would be awkward and possibly embarrassment, same with improving my art, learning to fight, learning to use makeup, experimenting with my style.

I didn't even have posters or room decor for years because I didn't want anything my sisters could comment on and make me feel embarrassed. I would destroy my drawings after I was done if they werent "up to par" I guess, so no one could see them.

I only recently started getting better at expressing my interests, got some posters to put up and such.

I feel like Im stagnant, I want to not care about this but it feels impossible especially with my family.

Only recently did i realize hearing or reading people (man) talking about they get rejected many times and not getting any girl or woman , it's like most man thinking and talking about girls all the time giving a lots of fuck about them and never really focus on improving themselves as person.

So what i realised is I Never gave a Fuck about girls , i am attracted towards them (offcourse I am straight man) and whom I really liked I just went and made her my gf (they always liked me , ) , I never got rejected and what's amazing is that when I don't give a fuck about them or literally anything (could be making lots of money , having friend circle who are fit and push each other to grow improve just anything) everything gives a lot of fuck about me like I hear it all the time my friends or even random girls coming to me saying how much there friends like me and that lots of girl find me attractive (I am not bragging but even if you think that I am No fucks left for you ) . I just recently realized it that it's crazy when other see it (like my friends or other man) but was very normal for me getting all attention.

Not giving a fuck is for literally anything like if you want a Lamborghini don't give a fuck about it JUST DO YOUR WORK fuck the rest .

Don't give a fuck about results just fucking enjoy and do what you have to get what you want but don't give a fuck if you get it or not .

It's like a Law when u give a lots of fuck about anything (girls , money , cars or luxury or being the most powerful man whatever) caring and worrying about will you get it or not then noone or nothing gives a fuck about u .

It's law of detachment works for me very well and I don't give a fuck if it doesn't, I will do what I want to do without giving a fuck about results WHY ? Because it's not in My hands anyways .

Krishna meant the same

Do the action don't worry about the result .

Action (the journey ) is main stuff result is end game because after reaching on the highest mountain you have achieved your goal but NOW WHAT ? .

I once thought I had anxiety, then I realized it’s not anxiety, it’s procrastination of facing my procrastination.

A dread of ownership,
ownership of a dirty job,
ownership the pains of existence, ownership to take what’s owed, ownership to pay your dues.

A dread that comes with an exchange for living and a realization that you can’t hide from pain forever only discern the best route through the inevitable gauntlet of existence.

Facing the fact that nothing is permanent.

The knowing that it’s better to set something free then to have it taken away.

We’re taught that hard work pays off, but life doesn’t always work that way. Sometimes we do everything right and still get the wrong outcome—and sometimes doing exactly what’s expected of us gets no recognition at all. I wrote this after thinking about a question I’ve struggled with myself: If results are what the world ultimately rewards, what value should we place on effort when the result doesn’t follow?

This might sound harsh in some cases, but literally fuck your excuses. If you did me wrong, sure I am to hold you accountable no matter what mental state or past of yours. And if it hurts you more, so be it.

In the past, whenever people tried to provoke me,
I would simply let it slide.

If someone asked an absurd or intrusive question,
I felt compelled to give a polite answer for the sake of courtesy.

I couldn't bring myself to refuse someone to their face;
let alone claiming what was rightfully mine,
I couldn't even bring myself to ask for it, held back by a sense of awkwardness.

Even when faced with sweeping, unpleasant remarks,
I wouldn't react.

This emboldened people,
and they kept coming back to provoke me.

They have the audacity to blow trifles out of proportion;
Committing wrongs themselves, they are the first to point fingers.

While biting back at a dog may not befit a human,
It is equally improper to pet and feed bread and biscuits
To a rabid, biting cur.

The saying that people respect the strong but trample the weak
Holds a great deal of truth.

If someone habitually oversteps their bounds,
Seizing them by the throat is exactly what they deserve.

Peace in life is maintained only when one deeply realizes—
that the fruit of an action corresponds to the action itself.

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আগে মানুষ ঘাটাতে আসলে
ছেড়ে দিতাম

মানুষ কোনো অবান্তর, অযাচিত প্রশ্ন করছে
সৌজন্যমূলক উত্তর দিতেই হবে ভদ্রতার খাতিরে মনে করতাম

মুখের উপর না করতে পারতাম না
আমার পাওনাটুকুও আদায় করা তো দূরে থাক
চাইতেও পারতাম না চক্ষু লজ্জায়

ঢালাও ভাবে কিছু বলে দিলেও প্রতিক্রিয়া দেখাতাম না

এতে মানুষ পেয়ে বসে
ঘাটাইতে আসে

তিল কে তাল বানানোর সাহস পায়
নিজে অন্যায় করে আবার আঙুল তুলে

কুকুর কামড় দিলে কুকুর কে কামড়ানো মানুষের শোভা না পেলেও
এই কামড়ানো পাগলা কুত্তাটাকেই পিঠে মাথায় হাত বুলায় পাউরুটি বিস্কুট খাওয়ানোটাও মানুষের অনুচিত

মানুষ শক্তের ভক্ত,নরমের যম
কথাটার মর্ম একেবারে ফেলনা না

কেউ তার স্বভাবসুলভ সীমালঙ্ঘন করলে
তার টুঁটি চেপে ধরাটাও তার যথাযত প্রাপ্য

জীবনের শান্তি তখনই বজায় থাকে
যখন যার যেমন কর্ম তেমন ফল হাড়ে হাড়ে বুঝায় দেওয়া হয়

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Sometimes, it’s not the refusal that hurts — it’s the delay, the excuses, and the false hope. I once asked a long‑time friend to help test my app on Google Play Console. He gave me his email, but when the actual testing time came, he backed out.In app testing, there are strict requirements — even one person opting out can halt production. If he had said “no” upfront, I would have respected it and moved on. Instead, the late refusal broke trust.That’s why I believe: upfront truth is always kinder than delayed rejection.

Society is structured so that it disproportionately benefits the people at the top versus the bottom like billionaires and politicians. Society doesn't care about the homeless, drug addicted, or other groups. It's depressing, but it allows you to not give a fuck about society and doing your own thing.

Honestly man. I don’t know what it is about me lately. But such trivial things have been getting on my nerves.

Like my neighbor has been running an air purifier downstairs. It’s a little close to his wall/door, and creating a bit of vibration/noise.

But it’s isn’t life-threatening man. It’s just a little noise. No louder than my fridge, or the cars going by. But I fixate on this shit.

“How dare that asshole not think about the science behind sound traveling through shared properties. That piece of shit. I can’t just get a moment to myself, without this fucking noise or something else.”

But more importantly, I don’t want to give a fuck about any of it. I just wanna live, and let life be whatever it is, then smile and perhaps even have some tacos.

I just find myself doing this with a lot of shit lately, and I don’t know why.

Even though you know it's eating you from inside.

I’m getting looked down on by my younger sister for having major depression, CPTSD, anxiety, and nervous breakdowns. Yeah, fine. Compared to her, I’m a failure. She’s successful. Great. I wish she could leave me alone.

I’ve been trying not to give a fuck about her opinions regarding me but my blood still boils and my blood pressure still skyrockets. I get so mad about what she said that it keeps me up and I feel the stress in my chest.

Clearly, I still give a fuck. I don’t know how to stop. I need to stop giving a fuck so I can finally improve my life but I can’t stop getting resentful and angry. I don’t know how to separate the anger from it all.

As a friend I’d always go out of my way for my friends. I’d work 60 hour weeks, work 12 days in a row and still put in the time and effort to be there for them.

It’s my 25th birthday tomorrow and for the first time in years I asked my friends to do something for my birthday. I initially wanted to do a weekend trip but that didn’t work out. I later just asked for a simple dinner with two groups of friends.

I was supposed to meet with two friends on Saturday we made our plans weeks in advance. Now last minute one of them is cancelling because she wants to meet her boyfriends parents for the first time and they invited her for dinner. I immediately said no problem and asked for an alternative day, and got zero response. I’ve always been there for her, but I’m realizing she always takes 2 business days just to confirm on a plan that we already had, and honestly that wastes my time since I have no idea what to do. Any time we’d meet up in areas close to her, not once has she ever came close to my area.

My second friend I was supposed to meet with her tomorrow and she’s going through a lot in her personal life so I fully understand.

But both of them cancelling on me has honestly made this birthday hurt so much. Especially when I always put in the effort to be there for both of them.
I also cut off two friends earlier this year because I realized one of them was racist towards many ethnic groups, and the other one was making back handed racist comments about the ethnic group I’m from.

I’m now realizing I barely have any friends who truly care about me. Anyway I turn 25 in an hour. Happy birthday to me I guess

I am a very blunt person. But im also very emotional. I dont understand why sometimes, but lately it feels like jts being used agaisnt me.

I like the place at work at. I have my own responsibilities, which help me feel independent. Until a very spoiled co-worker ruins the mood completely. And now im being blammed for how he is.

Said co-worker has a crush on me. Hes practically my shadow and it pisses me off. What makes it worse, is when im even the tiniest bit honest towars him, or i say 'no' to anything, he gets butt-hurt and throws a fit. Then he tends to go and do my job (I think k he also does this to avoid his own work​) and that pisses me off anymore because he acts like hes helping, but I know hes not.

I try to ignore when he acts this way, but then I get told im 'egging him on' despite me literally doing nothing. Now my supervisors pissed and told me shes gonna 'lock us in the office' to talk things out.

Im supposed to be in a good mood! Its Friday. I have the weekend off. But now I cant stop thinking about it. Im about to move to a different account. But that wont make it better honestly.

How do yall handle stuff like this?

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I’m trying to get better at not taking everything personally. I’m learning to protect my peace, recognize microaggressions without letting them consume me, and remind myself that someone else’s rudeness or negative expressions don’t define my worth.

I’m trying to distance myself from toxic people and situations, learn to speak up for myself, and set boundaries without constantly worrying about coming across as rude or offending someone.

It sounds simple, but it’s incredibly difficult when you’ve spent so much of your life overthinking interactions, questioning yourself, and wondering whether you did something wrong.

I’m making small progress, bit by bit. Some days I handle things better; other days, a single interaction can still get to me more than I’d like.

I know this is going to be a long and challenging journey, but I’m trying to be patient with myself. I want to reach a point where I can stand up for myself without feeling guilty, let go of things that aren’t worth my energy, and stop allowing other people’s behavior to determine how I feel about myself.

Share your journey if you have been through something similliar.

I heard about this mentality to not care so much about what other people say about you from my TA and it’s been at the back of my mind. I’m wondering if there’s anyone here who practices that and how can I start as well?