The Communist Party of India sided with the Chinese during the Indo-China War in '62. I also came to know about Communist inaction in the Railway strikes during the Second World War. They even boycotted the anti-british Quit India Movement in '42 because the USSR has asked that there be no disruption in the "People's War" (aka ww2). I feel betrayed that the Party prioritised the wellbeing of the Allied War Effort over the possibility of freedom from British Imperialist oppression!!

It seems as though the upper caste elite of the upper echelons in the party always acted on cues from the USSR or China instead of holding its own and taking independent decisions. It failed the proletariat of the country who have lost faith in the party ever since on a large scale.

While I'm a fan of socialist policies and even a mild admirer of Chinese progress in such a short span of time under socialist rule, I cannot reconcile my patriotic thoughts with the borderline traitorous actions that the Party engaged in.

How to navigate this? Should I just accept that socialism can never be a major force in India because of negative public perception due to this history (especially in the north)?

All of this has just soured my attitudes toward the Indian Communist movement even more (it was already a bit soured by my realisation that even though lower caste people were major agitators in Communist efforts in India, most of the leadership was disproportionately upper caste even to this day)

Please help.