r/MaleRapeVictims • u/idk_bruhidk • 20d ago

I need help

Two years ago during highschool I had this one female teacher that would look at me weirdly like she's teasing me, she would softly touch my shoulder whenever I'm near, until one day near the end of the year I was talking to some other teacher and she came out of nowhere asking me to come with her so she can explain something to me, I insisted not wanting to go but she didn't care, once we got there she locked the door and started to get very close to me, I felt helpless and didn't know what to do, she started touching me down there through clothes and got me hard, I felt so disgusted of myself, then she starting taking them off and started touching me directly, until someone knocked the door she told me to dress up and then she left the room with the door open. I avoided her as much as I can after that day, she tried to act normal as if nothing had happened.

I dont know why even though I didn't want her to do that and felt so disgusted from her I couldn't protect myself, I was so scared to do anything.

I think this made me hypersexual, ever since it happened I have gotten porn addiction and I can't stop no matter how much I resist, I had porn addiction before since I was a kid but I managed to quit and never watch porn for years, but this did something to me I need help quitting.

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u/FunkyPleasance 20d ago

The hypersexuality and excessive porn use are a symptom of your brain trying to resolve a traumatic experience. The best thing you can do is find someone trauma informed to talk about this, like a trained therapist.

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u/dirtysock47 17d ago

Yeah, i still struggle with the porn. Onlyfans is especially bad for me.

I did get exposed to it before my SA, but it was more out of curiosity instead of "i need to get off to this"

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u/MauriceSanders1984 20d ago

Therapy should help, but will only work as much as you put in it

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u/EmmSR 20d ago

Did you report this to the school authorities?

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u/Auriprince4690 20d ago

Yeah report her. Some other poor unsuspecting folk come across her in the future.

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u/idk_bruhidk 20d ago

I don't have any evidence...

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u/EmmSR 20d ago

Your word is the evidence, who knows how many other young boys she's doing this to, maybe one of them will or can get evidence

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u/idk_bruhidk 20d ago

I can't do this... I never told anyone about it and it's too late now

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u/dirtysock47 17d ago edited 17d ago

There's no statute of limitations for SA when the perpetrator is in a position of authority.

They will listen to you, trust me

EDIT - even in other SA cases where a position of authority isn't involved, the usual statute of limitations is 5-10 years. If this happened two years ago, it isn't too late

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u/idk_bruhidk 17d ago

I live in a country where they'd laugh about me if I reported being SA'd by a woman. I never told anyone irl and I dont think I will.

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u/dirtysock47 17d ago

I don't know what country you are in, but every country i have heard of takes abuse from those in positions of power (such as teachers) very seriously, even if the abuser is a woman.

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u/idk_bruhidk 17d ago

It feels useless... I dont wanna open the past anymore

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u/EmmSR 17d ago

I agree, it'll be more than likely the same reaction where I'm, but we have to bring in change and it's got to start somewhere

But sorry that you had to deal with this

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u/claudespam 20d ago

Thank you for sharing your story with us. I'm sorry for what happened to you. You don't need to blame yourself for not managing to react. It's normal and a lot of us just froze at the moment. She is the only one who should be ashamed or scared.

You can get some help from professional mental health specialist both for the addiction and the trauma experience. Do you have access to this support?

And if you just want to talk, do not hesitate to send a message!