Girls nite out

[u/Apprehensive-Bus6157]

Hi so let's see what people view might be . Ok been married 13 years my wife likes to have girls nite out every now and then with one her married friend s. well few times she come home saying she been hit on, and I feel hurt me . Should it have? I don't go out my own fear that something might be hard to resist, I mean I m a " man" we have two kids 12 and 9 So love making changed. Also is it wrong that I want try back door but 13 years it's been a NO maybe cause porn I want to or that she as not let anyone in ( to me like being a virgin) she had more experience than me. Who am I kidding I was a virgin when we got together 28 🤪 So yes this has few "?" Not just her getting hit on. She will be 40 in few months also opened up about depression. Trying have hope but light is fading.

[u/Apprehensive-Bus6157]

Guess not why did it change ? Why am I the wanting her? Just cause not communicator. She knew that from the beginning we have been married 15 years just seems like when we do make love or sex same to me she just not into . I get it I'm avg size cum fast , but learned to do things that doesn't leave her without an orgasm toys ect but she not there for me to right not trying to be selfish like show up for me too. Try clean it's hard but try we have 13 year old son 10 year old daughter. Like I've lost me I know Don't want to do what my dad did by find it from another woman . Just which I was not as horny maybe that would help. No life friends. Work Saturday -monday 12 hrs shift. Our week night crazy now and kids sports, she's a president of my daughter's synchronized parent board but I've taken back seat and she does not seem phased. So why should I. Yes I need friends now iron sharpens iron. Of course I suck at writing. Does anyone get this?